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I WANT TO HOG THE LIME LIGHT



I was never popular when I was young. Maybe I should rephrase my sentence. I am socialble, I am friendly, I do have friends, but I want to be popular. I am an attention seeker. I want to be recognised by people.



It started off when I was in Secondary three. I started to socialise more - with people from my batch and those juniors. I went to IRC(INTERNET RELAY CHAT), my school channel, #Henderson and chatted there. I began knowing those juniors, I thought it would be a better way to socialise with people younger than me first and then get to knows those seniors of mine. The first person I knew was Katherine and then Cindy. They then started introducing me their friends from their class and soon, i knew everyone of them in that particular class.



My popularity soon started to grow, the juniors soon introduced me to the juniors from the other classes and then to the seniors. And thats when I started knowing Katherine Lim, Vernon, Lea Hai, Wei xiong and many more. Apart from that, I've got together with the people of the same batch as me. It was pretty much easy to get along with them as we have particularly many things in common and we are of the same age. But those people were not enough for me. I need my popularity to grow, to expand beyond the horizons. I got greedy.



I yet again went into the IRC(INTERNET RELAY CHAT) and began chatting in all different kinds of channels from #teens to #singapore to #melayu to #pokemon to #ahlian to #witches to #charmed to #lesbians. I want more friends. I want to be noticeable. I started planning channel outings for different kind of channels. I've been to most of the gatherings and I've got so many friends that I could even forgot their names and when I got to know them.



But when I got older, my thinking became mature. More friends? Why do i need alot of friends? Why should I seek attention. I should only have a group of friends who I can go out with, talk to, confides my problem to and so on. It could be quite troublesome to have so many friends sometimes.



And soon, the number of friends that I had decreased. Why? - It's either I was too plain lazy to contact everyone single one of them or that they had changed their numbers. But still I have a certain groups of friends who i can go out with, talk to with and etc and definitely I won't forget them.



Years have passed, and then my greed came back again. I started to chat again, socialising with people of the same or even different calibre from me, people of different races and religions. I want to hog the limelight again...



Even till now!



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SMALL BUT YET BIG ACHIEVEMENTS



1. The Platforms and The Man-Made Bridge



It started off with torrential rains in the morning but as soon it was in the mid afternoon, it stopped. I went to Kallang River with my classmates. It was cloudy and breezy. We thought we could sit at the spot that we usually chill out but it was taken by a few uncles. We had to walk a distance before we could find another spot to sit down and relax. I was darn hungry, so I had to grab a bite first before venturing into other activities. It will be boring if I would only stay at the same exact spot, not doing anything except for chit chatting with my classmates.



Then, I decided to take a stroll at the side of the river. My shoes sank into the wet dampened earth, and making trails along the sands. My shoes were dirtied and soiled but I didn't really care since I already knew the consequences for walking there during an after raining session. And then something caught my attention. A short walking platform, floating on the water; it's like a bridge. I was really tempted to get onto that platform but what stopped me from doing so was that the platform was a meter away from the dry ground, from the sands. I have to walk in the water to make it there. *Thought* - By the time I reached the platform, half of my body, from my toes up to my waist will be wet.



And then Su`aad noticed the platform too. She, just like me, was tempted. She was ready, with her sandals off, wanting to try out getting onto the platform. She urged me to do so too since I already had that idea in mind. I hesitated, telling her that I will be soaking wet but she told me that it will be fun and that sometimes, we must try to do new things in life, venturing into the different aspects of life. I yet again hesitated. The other classmate of mine, Salimie, joined Su`aad. After some considerations, I told myself that it wouldnt hurt abit to try out. I folded my trousers till it was my knee cap length and slowly proceeded into the water. Cold. By the time, I reached the platform, half of my body was wet. Now, the next thing I had to do was to get onto the platform. I hold onto the two poles by the sides of the platform and slowly got up. It was not pretty hard at all.



Now there were two on the platform. Salimie and I. Still, Su`aad was struggling to get onto the platform. Salimie advanced to the edge of the platform and pulled Su`aad up. And then something happened. The platform began to sink. It couldn't hold the mass of three. Something had to be done before the whole thing would sink it.



I looked back and saw that there was another platform attached to the platform that I was standing on. I moved back. The platform slowly emerged back up. Su`aad was finally on it. I told them to proceed to my platform. there were no worries as the platform that I was on was much more longer and stronger that it was able to hold the three of us. We rejoiced for making it this far but then there was yet another obstacles. Now, the water is deep as we were already meters away from dry ground. No mistakes should be made or we will be swept by the current.



From where I stood, two to three meters away was another platform but it was thrice the length and width of the other two platforms. From the looks of it, it could hold up to more than 10 people. There was a big gap between the two platforms. Salimie decided to abandon the idea of proceeding ahead. We had no choice but to turn back. Firstly, the current was too strong and we would wait for the low tide to come before our second attempt.



We chit chat for a while and ate some tidbits, and also to dry ourselves up but I was thinking that we will still get wet even if we dry ourself now. Because we will still be going back into the water. This time, Salimie called it quits. Tired he was and that he wanted to spend more time with Erna. We all agreed with him and called it quits too. Salimie wore his shoes and decided to take a look at the place we always chill - whether those uncles have left the premises. I was left with Su`aad. She too was about to wear her sandals but I told her not to.



I find it rather a waste if we don't finish out task. To me, getting to the end of the very last platform was a form of a task and also a challenge to me. I told Su`aad that I would like to give it another try. This time, we were prepared. I saw a wooden plank; it was not that heavy to carry anyway. In no time, I was on the platform. It began to sway as there was an object on the platform: the wooden plank, with me. I paused for the platform to stop swaying. And then I kept on moving till I was at the last platform, standing at the edges, balancing myself while connecting the wooden plank from the platform to the other.



I lifted the plank and slowly moved it to the other platform. And then I lowered it. The two platforms were connected. Success!



2.CONQUERING MY FEAR



Su`aad and I give each other a pat at the back. But the worst has yet to come - crossing to the other platform with just the long, narrow wooden plank to act as a bridge. We looked at each other in dismayed. The current was still and its going to be quite a distance to get across to the other side.



It wasn't nice if I would have asked Su`aad to cross first. As she is a girl and she's not pretty good at balancing, fearing that she might fall and be swept away by the strong current, I urge her to stay where she was and agree to the decision of me crossing over first. Maybe I could balance better than her, but that doesn't neccesarily means that I could balance really well.



I took the plunge. I went for it. But fear took over me. I was numb. Looking at the gushing water and the narrow plank freaked me out for a while. "How am I going to do this?" Though its not that far or high above the ground, I still fear. Maybe to certain people who will be reading this Blog must be going like, "Oh come on, its just a short distance, I think I can do it without even hesitating." Yeah maybe you could by the way i descript here but if you were actually there, I guessed you might be having second thoughts of doing it.



I close my eyes and took a deep breathe, "alright". I took my first step and then another. Suddenly, the wooden plank began to sway alittle. I froze. And again and again. Huge winds came blowing right at us and the plank causing the plank to tremendously sway. "Don't panic", I comforted myself. "Everything will be okay." I wanted to drop to my knee and crawl instead but the plank wasnt wide enough.



The wind was calm. I began to take my next step. Nearly there... My heartbeats began thumping loudly. There...Inches away from success. I grinned and looked back, "I'm going to succeed!" I shouted to Su`aad, when suddenly, there was another strong gust of wind. I was caught off guard. I missed my steps.



That was it, I thought. I'm going down. I'm going to be swept off with the strong current. But no... my fear was overwriting all my other kinds of emotions. I made a dash to the platform before I would plunge into the water.



I regain my balance back and let out a huge sigh of relieve. I made it! I was jumping with joy. As for Su`aad, after what she had witnessed, she dare not to do what I've done. I took alot of courage and conquering my fear wasn't that easy.



3.The Mangoes That Were Force To Fall



<1530hrs> This time, Su`aad and I were the ones to go and have a look on whether the uncles were still there. They were gone but now there was a new group of people occupying the spot. We were lazy to go back to the spot we were at as it will be a long walk and quite a distance away from where we were now. We sat a few meters away from our fav spot.



And then something else caught my attention. Mango trees! Fabulous. Absolutely fabulous. Su`aad and I proceed to the trees and gazed up Mangoes, mangoes and more mangoes. We were really tempted to get them but the they were too high up and it was beyond our reach. I was disappointed. I scanned the mangoes - there were big and small ones, riped ones and those that are not yet riped ones.



The sun was glaring at my eyes. I looked away and moved a few steps backwards. Woops! I tripped over a small log. And then an idea struck me. I looked at the mangoes again and then back to the log. If I were to use this log as a boomerang, it will definitely hit the mangoes to the ground. I tried but it missed. And I tried again and it missed again. I did not stop, I did not want to give up. I know I could do it.



I tried yet again and wha lah! one of the mangoes fell to the ground. I ran to it and took it by my palm. It was the riped ones! And it smells nice. I didn't stop at one. I kept on going. Another one fell, and another and then another and yet again another. Greed took over me but after for quite some time, I had tired myself out. But I was satisfied by the number of mangoes I got. 60 to be precise. And Su`aad got 5.



>>>Three big achievements in a day... I was really happy that I was able to do things that I've never done before.<<<



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STRESSED OUT



For the past two days and till now, I was and still is preoccupied with alot of things. I've not yet done my Thinking Skills Project - 35 slides to be done in Microsoft Powerpoint but we have less than 3 - 4 days to have it done. It's not that we were given a short period of time to do but that we kept on delaying on doing the project.



The next thing I have to do was to complete my homework - Digital Application tutorial 11 by next week, thursday to be precise. I've not done a single thing yet and have not even glance through the questions. Probably I had to many things to worry about. But worrying doesnt really leads me to anywhere. I would probably have it done by tuesday - hopefully.



The Digital Application practical is one tough thing to be done. I've not yet complete the drawing of the circuit diagram on the paper and I've only 1/4 done doing the original designs hands on. I am afraid that the LEDs will have problems and won't be able to light up. But I should set that fear aside and concentrate on finishing it first. Whatever happens next and if it does not work, then I have to do troubleshooting.



Test, test and more test...This coming Monday, there will be a trial Digital Electronic test. Though the marks are not recorded but I have to really know how I really perform so that I will actually know how I will perform on the actual day and paper. And talking about the real online exam, it will be on the 27th of May. And not forgetting there's Internet Application test next week, on the very first lesson of Internet Application.



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