Sinobi Watch

My beloved bought me a watch. Is it because I can't tell time and am always late? Maybe that's why he bought me a watch!

Thanks babe!

Update Proper

I hardly have time for myself during weekdays thus hardly blog proper. I just write my random thoughts or whatever I feel like writing or updating, I'll make it short and simple. I am hating myself for not having enough time for myself, haha.

But I will always do proper updates on weekends since I have the whole of Sunday to myself and half the Saturday to myself. I didn't realize working could be this tiring.

Oh well, it's Friday! I can finally slow down my pace a bit. And I can concentrating on dating someone whom I just know recently.

Christmas is coming, people.

P/S; Next week 10 blogs will be listed in round 3 and only 8 will make it to the final round. I want to congratulate Aloysius for winning the 50 dollars in round 1 but unfortunately it was a tie in round 2 thus nobody was first and will receive the 50 dollars.

Working Towards The New Me

I am working with what I have now. I am working with who I am with now. No more playing around. Don't expect to see me on friendster or irc anymore. Anyway, I'm too busy to do that nowadays.

I have a job which is keeping me busy from 9 to 7 in the evening and I will only be back home at 9 at night because of the travelling time; 1 hour. Then at night, I have to blog because it's become part of me.

And I have yet to unpack my stuffs yet.

Busy me does not allow myself to do stupid things.

Busy me decided to be a change me. I want to earnt more money for myself and my family and my love ones. I must work towards my goal. Lindsay Lohan is already recovering from her episodes. So will I.

But even when you recover from the episodes, people will still expect the same thing from you, people will still expect the same negativity coming out from you. So even when you are sparkling new, people will still think you of someone dusty and rusty.

Nevertheless, I'm working things out. I'm hanging out with the friends who won't lead me astray. I am sticking with friends who don't club so that they won't have an influence of me to club.

I am happy that I am 4 months sober and 3 months of not clubbing.

Celebrating Mooncake Festival

My significant other and I went to celebrate mooncake festivals. We decided to stay at a hotel and celebrate it there.

So my significant other brought lanterns!

We litted them up and hang them at the windows and door.

Nice right?

And my significant other surprised me with mooncakes.

But I have a surprise of my own. I, also brought mooncakes! Muahaha!

My Four Leaves Clover Necklace

The four-leaf clover is an uncommon variation of the common three-leaf clover. According to tradition, such leaves bring good luck to their finders, especially if found accidentally.

Clovers can have more than four leaflets. The most leaflets ever recorded is eighteen. It has been estimated that there are approximately 10,000 three-leaf clovers for every four-leaf clover.

According to legend, each leaflet represents something: the first is for hope, the second is for faith, the third is for love, and the fourth is for luck.

It is debated whether the fourth leaflet is caused genetically or environmentally. Its rarity suggests a possible recessive gene appearing at a low frequency.

Alternatively, four-leaf clovers could be caused by somatic mutation or a developmental error of environmental causes. They could also be caused by the interaction of several genes that happen to segregate in the individual plant. It is possible all four explanations could apply to individual cases.

I received this four leaves clover necklace as a gift. I love it so much. Thank you. And I've been wearing it for 4 consecutive days without taking it off.

The mythos and symbolism of the four-leaf clover is endemic to Celtic traditions and may be seen transposed into the Celtic cross.[citation needed]

The four-leaf clover is often confused with the Shamrock. While the four-leaf clover is a symbol of "good luck," the three-leaf Shamrock, is a mainly Irish Catholic symbol of the Holy Trinity.

New Blog Skin; New And Better Life

It took me 6 hours to transfer everything from my previous template to my new template. And I had to do damage-control on my blog too. for the past few days, my blog has been really laggy so I had to remove a few of the unncessary stuffs on my blog.

Now it's much better.

With a new template, I thought probably I will have a new lease of life. I've got what I wanted.

I will be moving to my new home really soon. I have not yet view my new home but whatever it looks like, I will love it and I have to adapt to the new environment fast.

I have a new job which really excites me alot because its a whole new environment. I can't slack anymore like the way I used to be in army.

I have developed more trust and bond with my close friends.

I have a new I-Pod Nano, Mp4 player and Motorola handphone. These gadgets will keep me busy. They're worth buying. I have to admit I'm not good at dressing up. It's not my forte. I accepted it. I'm happy with who and what I've become today.

I am going to have my love life back.

Everything's finally going well for me except for one lunatic who calls me so often I thought he is a psychotic guy run lose from the stable.

I Want To Make You Love Me

If I could grant myself one wish, I wish I could see the way you kiss. Oh, I love watching you, baby. You're driving me crazy!

I love the way you love me. There's no where else I'd rather be. There's no one else I've rather be with.

I wish you could see the way you love. With care showered to me.

It's not right, it's not fair what you're missing over there. Someday I'll find a way to show you just how lucky I am to know you.

You're the million reasons why I love you so dearly.

There's no where else I rather be.


I love this video because it's a video we both love.

One More Shot At Love

My current relationship has been so topsy turvy. I've broken up with my current significant other over and over again. 14? 15 times? Sometimes I wonder why would I still be going back to my significant other when we had a major outburst and left each other already?

Then I realized its the time we had spend together and the weals and woes that we once shared. Times like that are hard to forget. This is my first breaking up and patching up back and breaking up and patching up back. It's like a neverending circle.

Totally, this relationship, I have not given up.

There are definitely people who confessed their feelings for me during my 'breather' period. There are people whom I once fancied and I thought wouldn't like me before suddenly confessed to me they liked me.

I tell you it's crazy.

There are people who confessed and shook my feelings alittle, making it sway. Yes, bad me. But the ironic thing is when you are pushing forth to try to get to know the people who confessed you that they love you, they seemed to be not interested anymore, pushing me away.

Puzzled I was.

If they noticed, I've slowly pushed myself away from them, stopping my constant sending of messages to them.

That was during my 'breather' period.

Now, I'm ready again to take another shot at love, with the same person. My mind was astrayed but not anymore.

Today is our 11th month. I was looking back at our past and I have to really applause myself for getting this far.

I'm really to give my love to you wholeheartedly. I'm ready to start a family with you. I'm ready to be with you forever.

Unless, touch wood, something happens again.

Happy 11th month anniversary honey!

From this time, 4.40am onwards on 2nd September, I, Isaac Ritz/Shah Rizal, will love you wholeheartedly and forever and ever and ever.

Freedom / What Makes Me

Yes, I know I've been repeating this over and again. But this is it. It's clean cut. It's really over. Over. Over. Really over. And usually I mourn over my lost but somehow I didn't feel anything today.

Instead I feel so agitated, I could take a knife from my kitchen and kill someone. This is how agitated I am. Those conversations I had with my significant other just makes me wonder why are we having so much communication problems and it's from the start of our relationship.

Instead of feeling remorseful, I felt the burning hatred in me.

It's so strong, I could just pack a few punches at those I hate.

I watched the walls around me crumble. But its not like that will build them up again. So here your last change for redemption. So take it while it lasts because it will end.

I've really become a spitfire and that just ignites my evil counterparts. There's no more resistance left.

This is the time, at the age of 22, I lost control. I'm going to break all the rules I wrote for myself because those rules only existed when I am attached. Now I am not and nobody is pulling me back already.

Nobody is holding my hand, to keep me away from hell and the demons and the bad people in the world.

Doughnuts

Yesterday, I went to meet my significant other. Yes, we patched back. My dear bought doughnuts for me.

But I didn't know those doughnuts came in a form of...

...heartshape.

I felt as if I was falling from...

...Heaven.

Over

What am I suppose to do now? My relationship with my significant other is over. I'm lost.

It's all over.

Dear Lord, Save Me

Help me. Someone help me. I can't feel anything. No emotions. For the past few days, I've been feeling tremendously sad and down that it finally shuts my emotions completely. Now, I can't feel anything.

It feels like dying, lying there motionlessly, still with your eyes wide open, able to see your surroundings, able to listen to the conversations around you.

It's tiring.

I'm confused. My significant other has been really nice and caring and loving but due to the many quarrels and misunderstandings, it shows alot to both of us how we handle the situations. I thought I did badly.

Being in a close to a year relationship with my current significant other has really tell I love my dear alot but the relationship's tainted with the many quarrels and misunderstandings till I couldn't breathe.

I had two choices in mind.

Maybe we could be friends because when we do, we don't have to quarrel anymore.

But I thought about all the good things. When I was at Taiwan, you waited. You sacrificed most of your possessions. You were there when I was sick. You came all the way from Tampines to Redhill. You did not mind that I am lazy, childish and crazy.

And then one day, I asked myself, what good attributes do I have for you to flaunt to your friends.

I want to let go of myself from you because I thought you deserve a much better person. I don't want to be selfish.

But part of me do not want to let you go because I still love you alot.

It's like my two personalities are taking turns to decide and it's killing me. Shah Rizal wants his significant other while Issac Ritz wants to let go.

All I need to know now is your answer. Or Issac might just go by our default answer. Or maybe you guys can have some say in this matter by commenting at the comment box for this entry.

Finally NUM

I find this bag really slick and oustanding from the rest that are displayed on the shelves. It's silver in color and has a shoe compartment at the front.

This bag costs me $124 but its worth it.

I really want to have it but it's for my significant other.

My 9th Month Anniversary Gift

My significant other surprised me with a gift for our 9th month anniversary.

It was bought from Takashimaya and my significant other claimed that it was Addidas cologne.

Somehow, i felt that was not it. Abruptly, I smiled widely. I knew what it was!

Oh my god! Oh my god!

Issey Miyake! Thank you dear. Love you! I love them alot!

Thai Food; The Spice I Need

I kept on having plain food like chicken rice, nasi lemak, mee rebus etc. I need to eat something different. I want to try something different. It's time for a change.

My other half and I went to Peninsula Plaza where we feasted on Thai food at the basement.

It was my other half's recomendations.

It was like still early in the morning and we were already thinking of eating spicy.

Both of us ordered the same food.

We ordered the Tom Yam soup and I tell you it's freaking delicious! I don't mind ordering one more.

They are genuine thailand people cooking thailand delicacies.

The Past Erased, The Present Begins

Fuck you Yahn. Oh, I feel so good. Hey bitch, you lost my discman and I let go of it. I'm going to shred your vest into pieces. I'll feel good that way. *Smiles*

And no, I've not been visiting my blog. Though I have not been reading, my readers are. Stop acting childishly la can? I didn't write about you already. Such a childish bitch. Well, hope you read this entry, because losing you as a friend is the best thing I've ever done.

Yahn sucks. Yahn sucks!

Yesterday, I had a good talk with Sun Jing. Thank you Sun Jing. I felt different. I felt that I needed to open up a bit more and stop being someone I am not.

Oh, thanks dear! I was so lost today without my atm card and ez-link with me. I only realized that I did not have those two in my wallet when I reached home. I have to scramble my way to my house to get some cash to pay the cab driver.

And I was thinking how am I suppose to go back to camp without cash?

My dear came all the way from work and bought me nasi lemak and gave me 10 dollars. It was really unexpected. I think I took my significant other for granted. I think I am not showering enough love for my dear.

I've neglected people whom I used to be with, my close friends. It's time to unto my mistakes. Today, 04/07/07, 4p.m, I shall make it clear to everybody, I am a new me.

Loving You More

From today (25/6/07), 8p.m onwards, i will love my significant other more! Today, we will renew our love.

I will love YOU MORE!!!

I will love YOU MORE!!!

I will love YOU MORE!!!

Back In A Relationship Again

I broke up like a week ago but I just couldn't let go of my significant other. I thought there will still be hope.

I was upset for the fact that we have so much understandings but with that one week of being single, I focused on how to improve myself. I focused on how I should accomodate to my significant other's feeling.

Yesterday, 24th June, 8p.m, we asked each other again if we wanted each other back again. It seems that both of us still want each other back.

Roses For Me

Recently, my significant other has been acting all weird, having to make things complicated out of small things but it's really okay. I'm not mad at all.

But I was surprised that my significant other bought me three roses to make up for what my significant other had done for the past few days.

Sweet! I love them!

I'm not angry at all, dear. Cheers!

The Ultimate Gift / Three In One

I was heading home yesterday, walking to my void deck when suddenly my significant hugged me from behind and told me that there was a few surprises installed for me. My significant other told me to wait patiently before asking me to go to the 22nd floor.

I waited patiently again. Then my significant other called her a few friends to help with the plans.

This was what happened at the ground level.

Many candles and a heart shaped card.

When everything was ready, my significant other brought me all the way to the 9th floor and told me to look down to the ground floor.

Wah! Sweet! I was really surprised.

Then I saw my darling's helpers ran away, haha.

We watched till the flames went off.

I received a blue teddy bear from my significant other. It was flown all the way from Europe. Wah seh, Love it honey!

And that wasn't all, I was given a box, a hello kitty box. Man, it was heavy.

I opened and saw Tamagotchi as one of the many presents.

There were altogether 22 presents for me given by significant other! I nearly faint!

It was a three in one celebration.

Happy 9th month anniversary dear!