Roses And Flowers

Roses and flowers at the night hours in an empty unit in a
tall tower, the people are talking and some are walking meeting and seeking and
being nerve racking.

Meat Or Vegetable?

Kore

Sabotaging The B'Day Boy

We booked the 11.35pm show. We watched 'Money No enough 2' and you know how much I hated Jack Neo's shows.

Before movies, we celebrated Jian Hao's and Kim fong's birthday.

Its obvious Jian Hao, the guy who was squatting likes Kim fong, the girl in orange. And the cake was bought by him, the birthday boy to the birthday girl.

And Jian Hao knelt down on both knees to aske Kim Fong to be his girlfriend.

Kim Fong rejected him.

But we were determined. We pushed them closer to each other.

But in the end, Kim fong slapped Jian Hao and that was how it all ended.

Duh! No, I was just kidding!

Ayumi Hamasaki - Monochrome

This song I must feature because it was a song produced by Ayumi Hamasaki in 1999. And her style of singing was so different from now. Still, she sounds good then and before.

Slow Mo

I apologize I am abit slow nowadays. I promise to write all the advertorials soon!

I Tell Me

I told myself the only way to be me is to find me. I can't just be me, like the old me just like that. I need to know how to find it.

Re-creating Monroe

Lindsay Lohan recreating Monroe!

A Tension Of Opposites

Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one
thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, you know it
shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should
never take anything for granted.

"A tension of opposities, like a pull on a rubber band, And
most of us live somewhere in the middle."

First Step

I will be reading a few books which will at least set me to the right path of finding my humanity or humorous side of me. I dont care what it takes.

Let me start of by reading, Tuesday with Morrie.

The content has everything I wanted to know. So probably this book will help me.

Please, Tuesday with Morrie, HELP ME! I wish my baby will help me on this but even before my baby can help me on this, I have to make my baby happy first because I was at fault. So I have to settle this problem with my baby before I can actually ask help from my baby. I need advices from alot of people especially from those whom I care and those who care for me.

I am allowing comments to this post. Just once.

I Am Still Not Me

I am still not as humorous as before. I have lost my sense of humour. I don't know what to do. It's like I am losing all my senses. I can't feel the world.

I have the perfect family, the perfect significant other, perfect friends, the perfect job, so what am I missing?

Tell me, I really need to know!

I feel that half of me is gone. The happy half. The goofy half. The crazy half. Gone. Period. I am not that goofy person I used to be. I am not that crazy person I used to be.

So if you are kind hearted enough, please tell me the answer. Because I need to know why I have become so vacant, so dull.

Tell me, I want to know.

Let it be comments on my guestbook or emailing me. I just need answers.

I need to find me back.

A Mistake

Two days ago I made a grave mistake and that is to have had my baby trust me even lesser than before. It was not meant to be and I didn't want to hurt my baby.

We were having quarrels so constantly that at one point of time, I felt terribly lost and did not know what to do about it. There was even a point of time when I thought if the quarrels would continue, its going to create disaster to the relationship.

I felt like giving up. But I realized its more than that. I started thinking about the good things we had and the bad times we had went through together.

My baby was there when I was terribly sick and I thought I was going to die or something. My baby stayed put by my side and ensured I ate medicines and recovered.

And when I finished work late, my baby will be waiting for me. I used to knock off way earlier and waited for my baby instead but recently with my new job, that doesnt allow me to do so. I wish to but I cant.

But I will and have tried to make a point to wait for my baby to finish work and send my baby home.

I remembered the times we told ourselves that we needed to save money to travel overseas to Japan, Taiwan and Thailand etc together.

I made a mistake by trying to know another person. I would have stopped at the last sentence but I want everyone to know that it was my fault and I admit to that mistake. I am not afraid of losing my face anymore.

It is a matter of owning to the mistakes that I committed.

I have learnt to take responsiblities.

Today, a few minutes ago, I surfed a few blogs, couple blogs like peggy chang's, andy's, and looking around me, seeing my supervisor still going strong with his girlfriend for years. I saw how lovey dovey they were.

I made a mistake by not fully loving my honey.

I want to give that love. I want to love my honey whole heartedly. And I will now.

My Love Forever

Many said I am still too young to fall in love and be committed in a relationship. Many said a committed relationship for guys only come when you're 28 and for girls to be committed in a relationship will be at the age of 24.

Although I am 23 this year, i have experienced what puppy love was, love at first sight was, love that turned to hatred, love that was not meant to be. I've gone through alot of things that many havent undergo yet.

A scattered dream that is like a far-off memory. That what I was feeling when I was left alone previously and being hurt in relationships too many times. Im not saying that I was not to be blamed but always I was the party who will always be two-timed by my ex and the cycle repeats.

This time round, months after my last broke up, I found someone whom I believe will be my life partner, my solemate, my everything.

Its been 9 months with my baby and I want this relationship to last forever. FOREVER.

I remembered the good times I had with my baby. I remembered knowing my baby from IRC and then we exchanged MSN and from there, we started knowing each other better. Barely a day, we decided to exchanged handphone numbers.

So the next day, I waited for my baby's call. And then I thought I should be the first to make the move and so I did. It was when I decided to text a message to my baby.

Four hours passed but no replies yet. I was like, "Okay, this is so wrong."

So I stopped messaging.

The moment I stopped, my baby messaged me and thankfully it wasn't because my baby didnt want to get to know me more but m baby was busy with work.

We chatted on the phone, we laughed, we giggled, we told each other more about ourselves. And then days later, it was the meet up. I know both of us were nervous.

And damn, I was late for the first meeting. We watched a movie. And my baby didnt bring any jacket to warm up and the cinema was cold so I decided to lend my jacket to my baby. I took my jacket off and placed it over my baby's shoulders.

After the movie, we went out for a stroll at Clarke Quay. I still remembered that we had that talk; seated on the bench beside the Singapore River. We discussed whether we were compatible or were we just suited to be friends only.

Then I realized we didnt even have to talk or discuss about it. It came naturally. We had feelings for each other.

Days later, then we decided, I decided to pop the question.

Fast forward, ...

I remembered the days we spent our Christmas together. We booked a room at Strand Hotel and bought alot of food and watched the Janic Dickinson show. I bet you have forgotten about it but I still remembered.

I shall jolt my baby's memories abit.



Remember now?

Then we started going overseas early 2008. I love those days when we spent together with each other without any interruptions from others.

I would like to have that again. Soon, I promise!

Fast forward again,

We decided to have our own numbers and that's when you said I will have to be attached to you for the next 2 years. *.*

I will definitely be attached to you more than 2 years. Forever! Eternity!

Nintendo DS Lite

I wanted to get a few things in the month of August but I don't really want to spend al my money just like that. So I decided to buy Nintendo DS lite. I kept on seeing people in the train, in the bus, while walking on the streets, playing with this device.

I told myself I must get one. But of course, I got it for my other half. Can share ma, hor?

I wanted to get the gold color but it wasn't in stock. Damn them! So I decided to buy silver, In the photo, my DS Lite looked like gold instead of silverish right?

Nice? Now, I have to buy the games and memory card! I bought my DS Lite at $306, with the casing seperately at $15 dollars. Not bad la hor? I thought it was going to be like $400 ++.

Say Cheeze

I wanted to eat something fabulous, probably desserts, so I made a trip to Say Cheeze which is located at Great World City with my trusted sidekick, Eric.

We ordered our desserts and started goofing around.

Before we could even snapped a few more photos, our desserts with the finger food we ordered arrived.

The desserts there were good but weren't as great at those we ate at 2a.m dessert bar the previous night.