You know, for the past few weeks, I have been thinking, thinking alot. And I finally thought that I really hated my life so much.
It's because I am not living it the way I want and that frustrates me. And I believe that must be the reason why I have been feeling so low and restless for the past few weeks.
I want a change in my life. Something not drastic. But at least a change.
My life feel pretty much like a routine.
I wake up at 10 in the morning.
I get myself prepared and leave for work at 10.30 in the morning.
I reach shop, open shop.
I do my job. Go for my breaks. I do my job. I go for my break again.
I go home. Settle down.
Bath. Eat.
Talk on the phone.
Use the computer.
Use my laptop.
Watch T.V.
Then I sleep.
This is what I do everyday.
Mundane? - Yes, very.
So everytime I have off days, I am pretty much looking forward to them.
But because of work, I will get very tired. And when I get very tired, I tend to wake up really late the next day, wasting half off my off day.
I am just waiting for the right time.
I want it to be the right time to do the right thing.
But when is the right time?
WHEN?
We can never know. I can never know. That's why I am very much very frustrated with life right now.
I am getting pretty restless nowadays. Because I finally figured, my burning flame has dwindle.
Can you motivate me?
Sometimes when I read my friends blog, like Kent's and Jo Classiclicious, I feel happy and routed back to where I want myself to be.
Kent has a funky life while Jo is living a life of luxury.
It's not about me wanting to have a funky life or living a life of luxury.
It's about having to life the not-so-routine life of mine!
I have to get over this soon because it has been lingering in my thoughts for quite some time already!
I need to find a cure to this.
