Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Feeling Sick Is Like Being Wasted
It's so weird.
I feel so sleepy.
As if my life is ebbing away.
Into nothingness.
Like the only solid flesh I can grasp is the air above my bed.
As I lie awake on my sodden sheets.
Dreaming dreary dreams.
Grapple onto the fragile ledge and watch it crumble into miniature cement bite-sized pieces.
Crumpled like the printer paper I used to handle.
It's so heavy.
This unusual frame of mine. So weary.
Dragging myself to the window now.
Yanking myself back to bed.
It's unlike outer space. Where you can float so free.
It's more like gravity rape, when it refuses to let go of you.
Well.
It's still heavy and weird.
So I'll try to sleep now.
Somehow.
I feel so sleepy.
As if my life is ebbing away.
Into nothingness.
Like the only solid flesh I can grasp is the air above my bed.
As I lie awake on my sodden sheets.
Dreaming dreary dreams.
Grapple onto the fragile ledge and watch it crumble into miniature cement bite-sized pieces.
Crumpled like the printer paper I used to handle.
It's so heavy.
This unusual frame of mine. So weary.
Dragging myself to the window now.
Yanking myself back to bed.
It's unlike outer space. Where you can float so free.
It's more like gravity rape, when it refuses to let go of you.
Well.
It's still heavy and weird.
So I'll try to sleep now.
Somehow.
Monday, November 23, 2009
Still Misses My Grandma
I still miss my grandma dearly.
Every time my mum will ask me whether I dreamt or even think of grandma? - I said no because I don't want my mum to be sad always when thinking of grandma.
I am always thinking of grandma. Every day. Without fail.
I regretted not treating my grandma that well when she was alive.
When she asked me questions, - repeated questions to be exact, I would flare up. I would scold her for asking me repeated questions and then I would ignore her.
I should not have done that.
When my grandma was alive, I hardly bought her favorite food which was french fries. She loves fries alot.
I remembered her protecting me from my dad's harms when I was naughty.
I remembered her protecting me from my mum's scoldings.
The one thing that I did not do before she left me, I didn't have any photo of me taken with her.
I had to look back at the past photo albums to find photos of me with my grandma.
Every night, I will think of my grandma.
Every night at 3.
Why 3?
I don't know.
Maybe that's the witching hour like many said.
Whatever it is, I still misses my grandma.
And everytime I think of my grandma, I feel like crying.
Its a repeated cycle.
I love you grandma!
Every time my mum will ask me whether I dreamt or even think of grandma? - I said no because I don't want my mum to be sad always when thinking of grandma.
I am always thinking of grandma. Every day. Without fail.
I regretted not treating my grandma that well when she was alive.
When she asked me questions, - repeated questions to be exact, I would flare up. I would scold her for asking me repeated questions and then I would ignore her.
I should not have done that.
When my grandma was alive, I hardly bought her favorite food which was french fries. She loves fries alot.
I remembered her protecting me from my dad's harms when I was naughty.
I remembered her protecting me from my mum's scoldings.
The one thing that I did not do before she left me, I didn't have any photo of me taken with her.
I had to look back at the past photo albums to find photos of me with my grandma.
Every night, I will think of my grandma.
Every night at 3.
Why 3?
I don't know.
Maybe that's the witching hour like many said.
Whatever it is, I still misses my grandma.
And everytime I think of my grandma, I feel like crying.
Its a repeated cycle.
I love you grandma!
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Bad Bad Week
It has been a bad bad week...
From falling sick,
to having bad sales for the entire week,
to having an irritant sapping my energy away,
and to endure noisy brats.
I feel very weak and tired right now.
From falling sick,
to having bad sales for the entire week,
to having an irritant sapping my energy away,
and to endure noisy brats.
I feel very weak and tired right now.
Beyonce Featuring Lady GaGa
What? Beyonce and Lady GaGa singing together?
Hmm... that's something new.
Hmm... that's something new.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Sick
I am sick; down with a terrible flu!
For the past five days, I woke up 7.30 in the morning and always sleep past midnight; to be exact 4am.
For the past five days, I woke up 7.30 in the morning and always sleep past midnight; to be exact 4am.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Lady GaGa; A MAN!
Lady Gaga is a MAN!
The rumor, which had been simmering for months, burst out big-time this past week after a YouTube video was posted showing a little "something extra" peeking out from under her miniskirt during a June 2009 performance in Glastonbury, England.
The video was soon followed by a quote attributed to the singer in which, supposedly, she proudly declared her intersexuality:
"It's not something that I'm ashamed of, just isn't something that I go around telling everyone. Yes. I have both male and female genitalia, but I consider myself a female. It's just a little bit of a penis and really doesn't interfere much with my life."
The rumor, which had been simmering for months, burst out big-time this past week after a YouTube video was posted showing a little "something extra" peeking out from under her miniskirt during a June 2009 performance in Glastonbury, England.
The video was soon followed by a quote attributed to the singer in which, supposedly, she proudly declared her intersexuality:
"It's not something that I'm ashamed of, just isn't something that I go around telling everyone. Yes. I have both male and female genitalia, but I consider myself a female. It's just a little bit of a penis and really doesn't interfere much with my life."
Monday, November 16, 2009
Brace Yourself, Issac
It has been a hectic week and it will be yet another hectic week this week!
Brace yourself, Issac!
Brace yourself, Issac!
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Shopping Is Not A Hassle
I am officially having the christmas mood feeling. Its not yet even nearing to Christmas, but it already felt oh-so-good.
We went to Sakae Sushi to eat!
And then shopped at numerous places.
Then we went to TCC near Somerset!
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