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Monday, May 31, 2004

The Cute, The Ugly And The Calculative Ones



The Cute



Saturday...



I was dining at Plaza Singapura's Mac Donald where we came across a very cute child. He was so cute that I couldn't resist taking a picture of him using my Nokia 3660 camera phone.



And the least that I had expected, he was making a peace sign/ twist sign to me when I took his picture. He even showed me his tongue. Isn't he cute?!







Oh that's him. I really feel like pinching his cheeks! Haha. So adorable. I wonder how many more are there as cute as him!



I smiled to the cute child and then turned back to join in my friend's conversations. I was having my dinner too at that time. And then that cutesy pie make some funny noisest.



I turned around and saw that he was actually playing with Janet's handbag. He actually unzipped her handbag! How clever could he be! And he took out Janet's calculator. I told Janet about it and she was instead mad about it. LOL. I can understand.



And then I thought of taking another photo of him. I placed my camera phone near him, ready to click the OK button when suddenly I noticed he pointed a MIDDLE finger to me! Yes! Let me repeat - he POINTED MIDDLE FINGER TO ME! I was like... "Huh?" Shocked!



I didn't get a snapshot of it as when I've clicked the OK button, he actually gave me the same pose as the first one. How amazing could that be!





Look! Nothing's changed!



OH don't be silly. How could he have ever showed me the MIDDLE finger! Maybe when he's much older perhaps. But he did open Janet's handbag. Too bad, I didn't capture a shot of that!



The Calculative

Saturday...



We went to Spotlight after that. Janet and Raudah wanted to buy all the neccesary stuffs for their art and craft thing. They are to make a teddy bear out of pom pom(s). I think so.



Janet had a very tight budget and she wanted to buy the least expensive stuffs. Some of the stuffs there were really very expensive. Then I realise that it was because some of the stuffs were imported from other countries!







Look at her! She brought along not one but two calculators with her. The other calculator is hidden somewhere in her bag. I was shocked that she brought along her calculators and took them out to tabulate the total cost of the stuffs that she was going to buy.



*blush and ran away*



The Ugly



I was walking at the carpark, reaching home in two minutes time. Suddenly, I stepped on something so soft, so jelly-like. I looked down and I felt so disgusted. It wasn't a banana peel if not I would have tripped over it and fell. What I had actually stepped on was a USED CONDOM



I feel like puking! I could still see the yellow color LIQUID flowing out of the condom. Did they had sex at the open carpark! *Impossible* People would be walking to and fro! Did they had sex in the car and since they had no where to throw, they tossed it out of the window?!



Oh gosh! Really, I feel like puking. The sight of it disgust me! Please people! If you want to have sex, do it somewhere decent, somewhere cozy and don't tossed your used condom anyhow!



3 More Days To Craziness



Let's rock the world [Shah Rizal Isaac Ritz Goh Ming An]

Sunday, May 30, 2004

Ridiculously Hilarious



2:45PM, I went out to meet my friends. Was suppose to meet them at Ang Mo Kio but they've changed the meeting place not once but twice! It was then at Outram Park but lastly I meet up with them at Little India! Can't you all ever be decisive for a moment?!



And then I've made a new friend, Anuar, who is Janet's godbrother.





This is him!



Then we decided to travel to Hougang since there's nothing much to do at Little India.

We were famished so we went to the Hougang Mall's food court to have our lunch cum dinner.





Don't I just look great!



At 6, we left the premises and met up with Raudah, yet again a new friend of mine!





Oh can't you leave me alone! I'm trying to eat here!



And then we went to Spotlight at Plaza Singapura. There were so many things in there that really fascinates me. The gift boxes, the pom pom(s), the colorful threads and many more. While we were walking we encounter a FRANKIE!



Raudah was too afraid; she ran and hid behind one of the shelves. As for Janet, she fainted on the spot. I on the other hand, face the FRANKIE! I've captured some shots of him carefully without alerting him.







Frankie: Roar!



ME: Is that all you can say? Roar? You're not intimidating me! I am not afraid of you! Yeah! And wipe off that stupid smile of yours! *looks again* Wait a second! Why are you sad, FRANKIE?



Frankie: I have a really bad toothache and its unbearably painful.







ME: *suprise* A FRANKIE that can talk, how amazing. Oh, have you seen the dentist? WAIT A SECOND! Why am I talking to a FRANKIE? Or a skull head!? Hey! You're not Frankie!!? What have you done to frankie!???



*Went back to my fighting position! Haiyah!!!! KA cha!!!!! *And I made all those funny noisest!





*Scratch head*



ME: *stops and look* Hey, where's skull head? And where did you go Frankie? Did you just morph?



Frankie: I'm so sorry to intrude you people. I'm just here for window-shopping... Anyway I'm done. My mum's waiting for me at starbuck.



ME: *scratch head*



*****



A few months back, someone told me that my blogging skills are not up to par. My sentence structures and paragraphings were like those of an amatuer's writing. After looking at my first few entries, there's no questionable doubt about that. But not anymore!



Just yesterday, he said to me that my blogging skills has improved TREMENDOUSLY! Kudos to myself. But I will keep on trying to make it perfect!



I promise to be a better and nicer person from now on ya *winks* if I am able to do so.. *grinz* Oh just kidding! Of course I can. Well, I won't be whining to you guys in school that often as I have my closest friend with me, my blogspot! HaHa. Oh I love ya blogspot! You've done great wonders.



4 More Days To Pure Enjoyment And Wild Fun!



Let's Dance To The Rythme! [Shah Rizal Isaac Ritz Goh Ming An]

Saturday, May 29, 2004

Taxi Drivers - Slow, Clumsy & Not Responsive



Poor Service



2.15PM, I waited for my classmates at Raffles City's taxi stand. They were 3 - 5 mins late but that was really okay with me. It's not like they were late for more than half an hour. Supposedly, the show that we are going to watch was at 2.15PM but judging from the rate that we were going, we would probably give it a miss.



But we didnt give up, we tried to get the destination as soon as possible. I called Comfort and booked a cab. And the operator said, "your cab will be arriving in 5 mintues time." We waited. And we waited somemore until I was so pissed. It was more than 5 minutes. Eventually, it was more than the given time!



I called back Comfort, hoping I would get another cab or get a good explanation from them of why the cab was still not there yet! And I asked, "I would like to book another cab?" And the operator replied, "Oh, so you already book a cab!?" Duh! - I just said ANOTHER and aren't they suppose to be competent enough to know every single details.



ME: Ya, I did book a cab just now but its already more than 5 minutes. Where's my cab?



Operator: Oh, let me check where's your cab now? PLease hold...



And I waited, listening to the stupid music they aired. Tick tock tick tock! And still I waited.



Operator: Sorry to keep you on hold. The cab is in the middle of a traffic jam...



What? Traffic jam? Come on! I am running late here!



ME: Traffic jam? OK fine... How long more before the cab will arrived?



Operator: 5 more minutes...



Yet again, I have to wait for another 5 freaking minutes. It's already 2.20PM!



And then my handphone rang. I picked up but I couldn't hear a thing. There were too many stastics! But for sure I knew that it was the cab driver! And I hang up!



*Ring* *Ring* He called again. Hello!??



"Are you Mr. Isaac?"



"Ya...Where are you now?"



"I am at the traffic light. Can you wait for me at the other taxi stand near the DBS bank?"



Huh! What? After a long period of time waiting for you? And now you expect us, ME!, to find you instead of the other way round! What kind of service is this? Ok fine! We did so but we couldn't find our cab! What the ****



Okay that's it! I join the long queue and hey, I didn't expect it was much faster than booking a cab. And then it was our turn when we finally saw our cab approaching the taxi stand.



Oh! So now you finally came! Hell no am I going to board your cab and pay you 3 dollars more after waiting for a long time! So I decided to board the cab in front. MuHAHhahAHah! And the cab driver called me again! Boo! I won't pick your call up! Serve you right. Lose one potential customer!



The Other Cab Driver



I thought my nightmare would finally end there but no! I told the cab driver my destination. "Can you alight us at Shaw House that is opposite Suntec City?"



No response from the cab driver. Hello? I am talking to you?! I need some response so that I know you are clear of the instructions that I had given.



And then he missed the place and went straight instead of making a left turn!



"Uncle, can you bring me to that building over that, Shaw House..." Pointing to the building.



Cab Driver: You told me to go to Suntec City leh!



Eh! You deaf or what?! You see lah, never pay attention right? Damn driver! I said THE BUILDING, SHAW HOUSE THAT IS OPPOSITE OF SUNTEC CITY.



Cab Driver: Haiyah, tell me earlier lah! Now I go straight already, how to turn. Here cannot turn.



ME: Uncle, you just stop at Suntec City and we will make our way there.



Cab Driver: That one is SHAW HOUSE...Why didn't you tell me the building name just now?



I just did!



Argh! So frustrating! After I alighted, I slammed the door really hard and walked away in a huff with my classmates.



Thursday, May 27, 2004

The 'Clumsy' and The 'Arrogant' Bus Passengers



The Arrogant



As usual, I would board bus number 63 from the terminal station near my house. I sat towards the rear of the bus. And as usual, the bus would get crowded after the fourth or fifth stop.



Everything seems normal but then, I was wrong. There was this guy, probably at his early twenties, walked so arrogantly and stood near the exit. He glared at everyone of us as though we owe him money! He had this 'come-punch-me' face and snobbish attitude.



I saw the other passengers sneering at him but he wasn't even bothered and still giving us that stupid attitude of his! And then the bus stop, the rear door opened. Passengers were trying to alight but he was blocking their way. They were pissed. I know they just wanted to push him down the stairs or even out of the bus!



He still refused to budge! They took the other route out. And the door closed. There was this pitiful old lady who was standing behind him, wanting to alight but was trapped, couldnt even move to the exit. Why? Because he was blocking her way!



"Hoi, driver! Open the exit door! Got an old lady want to alight lah!" shouted an old man from the front. The bus driver looked at the rear mirror and opened the door. The arrogant man still refused to move! Farking asshole! How crude could he be.



'Can you please move aside,' gestured a middle-age lady who was sitting two rows away from him.



The arrogant guy gave her the 'mean' look and then reluctantly moved away from the exit. The old lady thanked him. What!? I don't think the old lady should even thank him. If I were her, I would shout at him, 'Oi! Ah boy! You blind ah ~ can't see an old lady trying to alight ah?!' and then 'Karrr Pui!' *Spit at the guy*.



I looked at the guy, 'how I wish I could punch you!' And then he turned towards my direction and stared at me! OH GOD! Did he heard me talking bad about him. No! - Impossible, I didn't even open my mouth and breath out a single word. Did he read my mind? Huh, like in a thousand years perhaps.



He rolled his eyes and turned away from me. What?! How dare he! I could stand it no longer! My rage builds up. Oh that's it! I'm done with you!



Feel my wrath!







I got up from my seat, "Hey there!"



Everyone in the bus turned and looked at me in bewilderment. They knew - knew that I would give a piece of my mind to that snobbish guy!



"What's wrong with you huh? You have this stupid farking attitude that is really pissing me off!" I shouted.



"What's your problem?! It's not your business anyway! Just buzz off!"



What! What did you just tell me!? I thought. Anger clouded my vision. I advanced towards him and push him by his shoulder. "You are such a farking person who is very rude! Can't you - damn it! - move aside from the exit! People want to alight! Can't you see you are blocking their way!"



He retaliated back, "That's my farking business! Who cares about them?!" Who cares about this damn bus!" Who care about being polite and courteous!"



Everyone then was jeering at him. "Go away lah!", "Stupid boy!", "You are very rude!" And then I grabbed his water bottle and threw it on the floor and kicked it around like a soccer ball!



Yeah you go boy!



And then I swung my fists towards his face, wanting to punch him...My fists - just a few inches away from his face and..................















and.....





















my hand phone rang. *Ring* *Ring* I snapped from my reverie and answered the call. "Hello"



Haha!



The 'Clumsy'



How hilarious it was today in the bus. I took bus number 197 from City Hall and sat at the upper deck of the bus. There was this nerdy teenage girl who sat opposite me and a middle-age business man who sat behind her, reading newspaper.



Apparently, he was holding the newspaper up and reading on one of the articles. But what he didnt realise was that he was grabbing onto the nerdy teenage girl's hair. And she thought her hair was stuck onto something, trying to break free, shaking her head, tilting left and then right and left again.



And the ridiculously funny thing was that the man didnt take notice of it. He thought that her hair was part of the newspaper. Its either he feign ignorant or he's just plain dumb to notice it. Or that was a feitsh of his - grabbing people's hair. Ok



The poor girl. She had this 'Let-my-hair-go-or-I-will-shout-rape!' face. I tried not to burst out laughing. I tried but I couldn't. Well, I wasn't laughing so loudly though. I turned to my right and giggled away to myself. The girl might have saw me as I could see her blushing away. Haha!



Well, for those other passengers who didn't really know what was going on probably would thought that I am an insane or psycho or a mad guy laughing away.



'Hello, is this the mental institution of health?'

'Yeah'

'We have a lunatic guy on board the bus!'



I tried to compose myself. Ah, finally, her hair break free from the evil's man clutches. LOL.

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

BUSY...



Well, immediately after I woke up, my mum was nagging away at me to regards of my expensive handphone bills. Yeah, it's my fault... Shouldn't have waste my money like that. I didn't really want to argue with my mum early in the morning; talked to her in a very nice way. You know, peace...and it worked. My mum simmered down and everything was alright.



I had to meet up with Adam at his house to get things ready for our photoshoot. LOL. But before that, we played the WWE tournament game at XBOX. Gosh! He won every match. Strong~ really strong. I'm always on the losing side. For a moment when I chose another character which is stronger than his, I thought I could beat him finally but he was strategic enough to find my weakness and counter my moves. :P Darn!



And then we proceeded to the location for the photoshoot.







Seems familiar to you? LOL.



Well here are one of the photos taken at the railway station.







It is really tough to get the angle that you want - the right angle. It took several shots to get the right ones.



And then we had our lunch at the cafeteria there...



I had chicken rice and honey tea!







Burp!



We then proceeded to the nearby forest. This is one of the photos taken there.







There's alot more...but I've not arrange them into the designated folders yet. But when I'm done, I will post them on the net for you to view.



We ended our photoshoot at 5 and we packed up our things. I went back to Adam's house, helping him to shift some stuffs to his new house at Bukit Batok. Yeah.





'Hey stop taking photos of me! Shoo! Go away you brat. I'm trying to open the door!'





'What?!! You followed me into my house! How dare you. I am going to slay you into several pieces but before that give me all your money and valuables first! MuAhaHAHahA'





This is Adam's new house...



Doesn't the living room look so nice - just like a ballroom.



And his kitchen! - Look so spacious.





LOL! It was really a tiring day. And I can't enter my photoblog! I don't know why. They asked me to verify my email address which I did but I did not receive any return email from them. So how am I suppose to verify?



I am tired after the whole long day and now I am frustrated that my photoblog is not working. Well, never mind. I am now using photobucket...Humph!



Monday, May 24, 2004

YOU...



I woke up this morning, feeling so cold. The rain had stopped; the weather look nice. It's been quite awhile ever since the weather was this perfect, this cool, this less humid. I realise that I need to write this entry. There's a need for me to write this down.



I've not known you for years, or even for months but it's only for a few short weeks. Though its only been a short period of time, I felt that I am connected to you in a way or other. Somehow you make me special. You made me realise how important I am to people and how important they are to me.



You made me see how wonderous and colorful life could be. You made me whole once again. When I'm feeling down, at the lowest low, you try to cheer me up and would always be there for me...comforting me... advising me. When I am at my highest high, you would rejoice with me...congratulating me.



I remembered we chatted at IRC two and a half weeks back. You were different from the other chatters. You didn't really ask for my introductions right away, like most others would do. The others were not as serious as you. They were basically flirting around but not you.



We exchanged contacts but I was too busy, too caught up with my schoolwork that I've forgotten to text any messages to you. And then we faded away. I've nearly forgotten who you are and how your number got into my handphone address book.



I text messages to you and we did a 're-intro' to jolt my 'short-term' memory back. After which, I remembered and text messages to you now and then. Along the way, we began to interact more and I thought that are irresistibly interesting. The conversations we had were interesting though we are not yet that open to one another.



And then we exchanged MSN e-mail address. I've promised a 'Net Date' with you but I was too caught up with my stuffs that I've forgotten all about it. It wasn't intentional. :)

Then we had a 'Net Date' again. Yeah - I remembered this time. :)



We have quite a few things in common and both of us have blogspots. :P Kind of amazing, don't you think so? I can hardly find any of my classmates or even friends having a Blog site.



Yeah - to me, you're gorgeous-looking but no, I am not attracted to you physically or your looks. If I am attracted to you just because of that, it would have not be called 'like', instead the term would be 'crush'. I would have told you from the beginning, 'hey, you're so gorgeous-looking,' and ask you, 'can we go steady?' Absolutely nonsense.



I would want to know you better as a whole and hope that we could get along well and that this would led to somewhere...



*****



Christina Aguilera - Beautiful



Don't look at me

Every day is so wonderful

And suddenly it's hard to breathe

Now and then I get insecure

From all the fame I'm so ashamed



I am beautiful no matter what they say

Words can't bring me down

I am beautiful in every single way

Yes words can't bring me down

So don't you bring me down today



To all your friends you're delirious

So consumed in all your doom

Tryin' hard to fill the emptiness

The piece is gone and the puzzle undone

That's the way it is



You are beautiful no matter what they say

Words can't bring you down

You are beautiful in every single way

Yes words can't bring you down

so don't you bring me down today...



No matter what we do

(no matter what we do)

No matter what we say

(no matter what we say)

When the sun is shining through

Then the clouds won't stay

And everywhere we go

(everywhere we go)

The sun won't always shine

(sun won't always shine)

But tomorrow will find a way

All the other times



We are beautiful no matter what they say

Yes words won't bring us down

We are beautiful in every single way

Yes words can't bring us down

So don't you bring me down today



Don't you bring me down today

Don't you bring me down today

LOVE FOR THE RIGHT REASONS AND DON"T BE SO CHOOSY...



I've always been the one to do all the decision-making and the one who would always lead others. I've always been very decisive and have a mind of my own. I don't take orders and I'm not easily manipulated by others.



But somehow, in the aspects of love, I'm so lost. I'm so indecisive. Sometimes, when you love that someone and when you knew that he/she doesn't loves you. Its just one sided love. You will be pondering why doesn't he/she loves you back. Are you not worthy of him or her? Are you that bad?



The answer to the question is NO! You are definitely good in every way. It's probably that her/his criteria for finding their love one is too demanding!? They must have good-looks, witty, kind, sincere and rich... What? Please don't be so demanding. You think you can find someone like that? *Thinks again* No!



Each and everyone one of us has flaws. Those who have the looks could be unintelligent. They just flaunt their looks and hot bods but when you start asking them questions related to politics, they might give you hare-brained answers.



Those who are smart are sometimes villainous. They will get to a point of betraying their own friends to get what they want. They can hatched heinuous plans to get back at you if they're pissed or mad.



Those who are understanding, kind and caring might not be good-looking or/and even be unintelligent at the same time. What makes them impress people is the way they potray themselves to others - hardworking and being magnanimous always.



You see...where can you ever possibly get someone that is so perfect??!! So don't be fussy in choosing your love ones. If she/he really loves you alot, give her/him a chance.



*****



When you are in a relationship, don't be such a bitch to go flirting around with others. If so, why the heck in the first place you engage in a relationship with him/her when you still want to flirt and bitch around. *Shoots those bitches down!*



Are you attach to him/her because he/she is rich and can support you all the way or maybe buy you stuffs that you wanted but could not afford. Such a creep. Go find a job and support yourself. What comes around goes around.



Or do you love him/her because no one else loves you so you are force to love him/her instead. You don't want to lose out to your friends or classmates. You have to get the 'attach' status and brag to others, 'hey, i'm attached!' That is so hypocrite of you!



Some people get into a relationship just to spite their ex-lover. 'Hey, look I'm attach. You bitch, you shouldn't have let me go! Now look here, I am attach with another one, better than you' *Takes a gun and shoots them down*



You are loving them for the wrong reasons...Damn it, people...can't you see? What do you really one?



You love that person because he/she loves you. He/she understands you as a whole and so do you. You love him/her because he/she accepts you for who you are. When you're feeling the lowest low, he/she will be there for you; comforting you, lending his/her shoulder for you to cry on. And when you're feeling the highest high, you share the happy moments with him/her. You share the joy, you share the pain together.



When we are in a relationship, we are bound to have quarrels now and then, that's perfectly okay. Because when you make things out, your love for one another will be much stronger and you will be loving her/him much than the previous time.



The thing that I don't really understand is when we have broken up. Yeah, we are deeply hurt; it's like a piece of knife that had stabbed you several times in the heart. And the next thing you know is that you ex-lover got attach to another person just a few days you broke up with him/her.



Isn't she/he hurt too just like you. Doesn't she/he have emotions? How cruel can they be to just be attach to another when you are still in shock and heart-broken. That's what we call cruelty.



And when you started to let go, started to forget about your ex-lover, he/she will come running back to you, saying all those mushy words, "I love you...can we patch back?" or "I need you, I love you so much."



You think we are some kind of disposable items. When you are done with us, you chuck us aside and when you need us back, you crawl your way back and beg on your knees to forgive you? *Thinks twice* Neh! That is so not right.



Hmmm... *thinks* I'm not that perfect...I'm just a simple guy trying to give my best in everything I do or did.





Sunday, May 23, 2004

TRUE LOVE



The story start wif a guy, name Paul and a girl named Ella..



Both of were still students but had already started to 'fall in love'.. in another words, go steady.. In one of the days during their June holidays which they have been waiting for, they met each other at a basketball court.. Coincidentally, they started playing a match wif each other.. they had fun..



As Ella knew one of the frens of Paul, she asked for Paul's number.. At tat time, Paul didn't want to fall in love again, after getting so much hurt from the previous one.. Sadly, tat fren of Paul didn't give her the number..



As days went by, the holidays ended.. They met each other at another basketball near Ella's skool.. Day went by and Ella borrowed Paul's hp and missed call her own hp to get his number..



Tat very nite, she smsed Paul.. They chatted and had fun.. Till one day, Ella expressed her love for Paul.. Paul loved her much too.. after thinking 4 a long time, Paul thinks tat he and Ella would last, thus, asked her if she would be his partner.. Obviously, she agreed..



They went steady for one and a half short mths..Ella ended the relationship.. with her parents not allowing her to go steady as a reason.. who on earth would accept tat lame reason? but Paul,like many other love victims, had no choice but to let go..



Years past and another fell in love wif Paul.. She was Mary.. Paul and Ella didn't contact for a very long time.. Paul still loved Ella very much.. but nvr had a chance to tell her..



one day, along a street, Paul was wif Mary.. Paul saw a familiar figure across the road.. guess who was tat? it was Ella.. Paul ran acrossed the road, without noticing a truck coming.. BANG!! everyone near him crowded around tat area.. Mary screamed as she rushed to Paul.. Ella joined in the crowd.. She remembered the face, one who loved her so much in the past.. Next to him, was Mary..



He wasn't dead.. 'dun give up.. say my name, 100 times, 1000 time, a million times.. u're gonna say it till u can finish a million b4 u can stop!!' Mary said to Paul.. with tears in her eyes.. Everyone thought Mary was Paul's gerl.. Standing at one side, alone, was a gerl crying.. tat's was Ella who regretted breaking up wif Paul, after recalling how nice Paul treated her in the past..



Paul was sent to the Hospital..Mary and Ella were them.. Praying hard.. An operation was carried out.. Paul didn't survive.. The Doctor came out, shaking his head.. Sighed.. He too, thought tat Mary was Paul's gerlfren, thus approached her for an apology for not being able to revive Paul.. He said to Mary: "Miss Ella.. your boyfren didn't survive.. he gave himself up after calling your name 157 times.. im sorry.."



The Doctor has actually mistook Mary for Ella.. Paul was calling out for Ella.. Ella cried in a corner.. She knew why he had stopped at 157.. tat was the day she broke wif him..(15/7)she, who ended the relationship which Paul treasured so much, has in turn, ended Paul's life..



IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE DEEPLY.. NVR LEAVE TAT PERSON.. U'LL NVR NOE WHEN U'LL NEED HIM/HER BACK IN YOUR LIFE AGAIN..TREASURE YOUR LOVED ONCE..YOU'LL NVR NOE IF YOUR RELATIONSHIP WIF YOUR PARTNER WOULD ACTUALLY MEAN A LIFE TO HIM..



*****



11 Days to Madness...



Friday, May 21, 2004

THE FINAL DAY...



Today was the deadline for the submission of digital application projects. I was feeling rather anxious and afraid. I was not too sure that I could complete it in time, let alone to ensure that my project was functioning well.



Ok here is the lab that I was in.




The tables were in such a mess with all the bags, lab equipments and our projects.



For those 'blur' people out there, these are the equipments that are required to check and test the faulty parts and if it is working perfectly.




This is the logic trainer. It is to check for parity.




This is the multimeter. It is used for checking the voltage.




This is the soldering iron.



*****



I was really very frustrated that my project was not working properly. My LEDs - only 3 out of 16 lighted up. I was feeling so agitated and stressed up. What am I going to do? Am I going to fail? Is this the end of me. *Slaps my face* Shut up Isaac! Focus!



I did some troubleshooting but the final outcome was still the same. I had to ask help from Tommy and Rahila; they tried their best but still the situation remained the same. Well, its just a couple of minutes away from the deadline and I have not much time left to make all the LEDs light up!



And then it was all over. I knew I was going to fail my project. I knew I am not going to score that well. *Sigh* We tried to ask the lecturer to grant us just a few more minutes but she refused. That's it Isaac! You're doom for!



Regardless if our projects were not working or incomplete, we have to hand them in. Everybody was looking so gloomy and sad, Im no exception. And then my subject teacher told us something that had liven our spirits up. She would not fail those who had tried thier best to make their project functioned and those who are much hardworking than others. :) I guessed I'm one of them. *Hopefully*



Afterwards, I went back home and met up with Tommy and Michelle at Punggol Park at 3.30PM for fishing.



Tommy was all prepared with his fishing tools.




Look at the box. How amazing! Screw driver, scissors, hooks and many more!



On the other hand, I only brought along hooks. Ha Ha! What the ...




Michelle and Tommy... busy busy busy...



The sun was blazing hot and it was scorching us! We relocated ourselves to another fishing spot but darn, it was still very hot. After all my hard work for the past few days to get myself fairer; using all kinds of facial foam, masks and creams, my skin became tanner within a short period of time.



I was standing in the sun for quite some time that I felt so dehydrated. At a point of time, I feel so giddy that my eyes began to blur. I just wanted to find a shelter but there weren't any. Well, there was one but it was far away from me.



Anyway, I felt much more better after Michelle bought me drinks. I wasn't that thirsty and dehydrated anymore. In total, we caught 44 Luohan fishes including 2 yellow ones. But as for me, I only caught 12 while Tommy, who was the expert one, caught the remaining fishes. Darn his fishing skills was good! Hail to him!



I would like to thank Tommy for teaching me how to fish and giving me all the 42 fishes except for the 2 colorful ones - you kept for yourself. *Hmph* Just kidding. You've been such a wonderful friend!







Thursday, May 20, 2004

TO LOVE OR NOT TO LOVE. (ONE HEART FOR THREE PEOPLE)



A week ago...



"Are you free this friday? Are you schooling this friday" asked my EX with a quivering voice.



"Probably, it really have to depend. I've not yet complete my project and for next week, there will be several tests that I have to study for. Why did you ask?" I replied.



"Well, ... nothing. I was just asking for the sake of asking," said my EX.



I was having my doubts and I know what you were going to ask me. "Are you free this Friday, so that you can see me for the last time before I leave for Myanmar?" or "I hope that you can send me off from the airport..."



In the end, I was unable to send you off. I couldn't get away from school work. There were too much to be done in such a short time. But now I ...regret. It will be 15 days from now before you fly back to Singapore. Somehow, I do miss you.



Gosh why am I feeling this way after what you have done to me. You have broken my heart over and over again but though I was hurt in the process, I still, ever so persistent, wanted to patch back. I waited... for more than a month.



You told me that you wanted to take a break from this relationship. You were tired of the consistent and every-day quarrel. I fulfilled your wish and gave you time to cool off. Everyday without fail, I would text at least one message to you, to let you know that I've not forgotten about you and that I am still waiting.



And then, it was more than a month. The wait was finally over and I found out what was really going on! You went out with another guy. You claimed to still love me even though you've been seeing that guy. And the guy loves you so much. I was so over the top and of course, jealous. How could you?



I was lost, confused. What am I suppose to do now? I asked myself. And you said, "I am still not in a relationship with him yet. I still haven't decide on who to choose yet? I still love you...I do."



What crap! You can't have both world. You have to choose. But in the end, I chose to let you go. I fabricated a story of a non-existent person loving me and that the person's love for me was true.



How suprise I was the following day when you told me that you were attached to the new guy. How farking pissed I was. But a few days later, you told me that things didn't work out between you and him. And that he left you knowing that you still love me.



I was like huh!? Finally, you told me the 'truth'... You have to accept his love not because you love him but you wanted to make him happy. Initially, I don't really get you. How can you accept someone when you don't really love that person?



And then you told me he has only a year to live as he was suffering from some kind of cancer. I really find it hard to accept the truth or whether you have been lying to me all this while. You have change your freaking answers time and again even though you were being asked on the same question. How could I believe you?



Were you fabricating the story or was that the truth. Till now I am still unsure. But regardless of what happened, of what you told me, I chose to believe you. Sometimes, I feel so silly. Should I wait for your return or should I not?



*****



Back to the present...



I tried to forget about you but sometimes, I just couldn't do it. I tried to focus my attention somewhere else. I log onto the net and chatted in IRC, not looking for love but only to make more new friends.



And then I chatted with this person named Z. We exchange contacts but didn't really have the time to text messages to Z as I was pretty much caught up with school work. But finally, when I was alittle less busy, I chatted with Z on IRC. I and Z had some kind of chemistry going on between us.



We have so many things in common...so many. Z's really a humorous person and everytime I am feeling down or moody, Z has always been there to comfort me. Judging from the last few chats I had with Z, Z seemed to be a very shy and quiet person. Days has passed and I began to have a liking for Z.



Z has been so nice...just so nice to me and understanding. Each time, when we were having conversations, I would always ask Z to wait, probably at those moments, I was busy or something had cropped up. And that Z have never flared up before or give any attitude problems to me.



Somehow, I really feel connected to Z though it has only been a few days. I feel so secure chatting with Z each time.



*****



In school...



Everyday has always been so busy for me. There are projects to be done by this week and tests to be revised for next week. I am starting to feel the pressure getting on me. I feel so stressed up.



Today, I got back my test paper I did for yesterday. I was so afraid to take my paper back. I feared that I might not score well or even thought of the outcome of failing. But I plucked up the courage and approached the subject teacher. She handed me my test paper back but I didn't dare to look at the marks.



I was already feeling disappointed even before knowing my marks. I knew I didn't perform well. I just have the gut feeling that I failed terribly. *Snaps!* I didn't want to drag further. I really wanted to know my marks.



I flipped the paper to the front and was utterly shocked. I passed! But I was pretty sure that I didn't really do that well yesterday. Anyway, I passed. I scored 65/100. But I wasn't satisfied with my marks. I wanted to get 80+ but I knew that's impossible since I didn't give my best for this test.



I was feeling a little down. I went to the school's cafeteria with my classmates for my break. I walked down the stairs when I saw someone that really caught my attention ... walking up the stairs, walking past me. I turned around and stole some glances at the person.



I've been noticing the person for quite some time now. I think I've a crush on that person. I really wish, somehow, some way, I can get close to the person. I'm just wondering how.



Some days back...



I was in the school's cafeteria, drinking a glass of bandung when suddenly I saw the person whizzed past me to the drink stall. I was looking at the person intensely. Oh man, the person really melts my heart away. The way the person way - so elegant, so sophisticated.



The person sat down four tables away from me,alone. I thought of approaching the person but I just couldn't. I was afraid. I was numb! Ha ha! And then his friends came to sit down with him. There was once when I kept on gazing at the person that the person noticed but I looked away. I blushed.



Oh god...help me...why am I so indecisive.



Wednesday, May 19, 2004

FATIGUE TOOK OVER ME...



I decided to study my Digital Application yesterday but the final outcome - I was too tired that i chucked the books aside and went to sleep. I've set a time for me to wake up the next morning at 4.50AM but unfortunately, I overslept and woke up at 6.30PM instead. There's 3 1/2 hours more to the test so I took the opportunity to flip through and read up the main points.



I did the test and believe that I didn't give my best. I don't think that I would score, let alone pass. I'm not pretty sure but I should have known better to be more prepared, to study a few days before hand. But now isn't it too late for me to think all about this when it's already over. I felt so fearful, realy nervous of what my result for the test would be.



Afterwards, after I had my lunch and all, I went to the Lab room to try to complete my project work for D.A. Project deadline is this coming Friday and hopefully that I could complete the cicuit in time and that it would work without any flaws. But there were already a few after I did a few testings on the cicuit but out of the sixteen LEDs, only three light up! *Sigh*.



Today, I decided to take a straight bus home from Bedok Interchange. Well, it was already six in the evening and I was so sleepy that I could hardly open my eyes and I could barely stay awake. The moment I step into the bus, I knew that it will not be a smooth bus journey ride home. The bus diver was very inconsistent in his driving.



I was trying to get some sleep but the bus kept on jerking and having sudden halt. And then I accidentally hit my head on the glass window. *Ouch*. Darn! St*pid driver! I became giddy and bus-sick! Grr! I felt so nauseous. And it was a 1 1/2 hours journey - my butt was cramping from seating too long. How I wish I could get out from that bus and take a cab home. *Took out wallet and check* Opps no cash! Spend them on food! *Sigh*



And then came three Indian guys, two seated behind me, and the other sitting on the opposite side of me. I speculated that they would probably be around my age or older than me by a year or two. Oh did I forget to mention that my discman - low-battery. I was too lazy to take the earpiece off my ears. I felt so silly though.



They indian guys were talking about how to court girls and blah blah blah. I was so wanting to laugh my head off. They said that their younger siblings were childish and immature. Well, I guess you guys are much like your siblings. Now and then, vulgarities came out from their mouth.



And the dumbest part was that one of them assumed or should I say all three of them assumed that I was listening to some songs, but I wasn't though the earpiece was still stuck in my ears. Out of a sudden, I could hear this st*pid strange noise that goes like - awwwww or was it boooo.. so close to my ears. The Indian guy sounded like a lunatic. Lets name him A. And the other two B and C respectively.



B: Are you crazy?

A,B and C laughs their heads off.

A: He can't hear me!



Duh! I can hear you!



C: What did you do that for?

A: Aiyah! Got nothing better to do mah...

B: If you are sitting alone in this bus making funny noises to the guy, the other passengers might have thought that you are some kind of a psychotic guy or an idiot.



Yes, I have to agree with B. You're an idiot! Have u got nothing better to do than to make funny noises to me. Talking about immaturity.



And then he continued again. How I wish I could turn around and making those funny face. *snaps* What am I thinking? I wouldn't want to stoop to their level. I couldn't stand it anymore but luckily it was my stop.



Initially, when I got back home, I thought I would straight hit the shower but I was so giddy and tired, I had to rest. I lay down on the sofa, and took panadols. Few hours later, I felt alittle alright and log into the net to blog! LOL.

Monday, May 17, 2004

RESTLESS...



I had all my attention focused on my classmate's project. It was already half past one and I was getting lethargic. My eyes were droopy but I have to complete it before dawn breaks or should I say I need to get some rest! For the past few days, I had been sleeping late. Fatigue took over me. Minutes later, I chucked everything aside and went to bed!



The sun rose in a pool of crimson gold, spilling lights all over the land and white clouds. I opened my eyes slowly and stretched myself. *Sigh* I was still feeling lethargic. Those few hours of sleep were just not enough for me to recuperate back my energy. I got ready for school. Yeah, the same routine each day.



First thing that I am going to do when I've reached school - complete my darn Digital Application Project. I'm really stressed out as I fear that my project might not work out well and that if so, I have to troubleshoot it and that may take time.



Hook or by crook, I had to get it done! But the unexpected happened. I had solder the wrong wires to the wrong holes! How careless I was. *Slaps face*. Stop reproaching yourself! You've tried your best and just because of some wrongly placed wires, you fear that it might not work, you think that you're a complete failure! Duh! - No! Geez!



Well, times up, lessons over. I have to come for make-up class tomorrow to finish my project - final touch-ups! *Cross fingers* Hope it will work. I just want to get this over and done with. It has recently cause a turmoil in my daily life - hasn't been sleeping well, thinking how could I get it done in time? Did I solder the wires correctly? Was there any mistakes with the connections?



Chuck them aside for the moment. I proceeded to my TKS class - was late for twenty minutes. We have a power point presentation and *phew*. I was the last presenter. That should be easier since I've not a need to start it off and for the first freaking time, I am not the leader. :)



I was nervous even before we presented. My hands, icy cold. My heart thumping outrageously fast. And then came the very moment. We advanced to the front of the classroom and got ourselves prepared. Rahila, the team leader started the presentation off. Everyone seemed nervous. Their voice were quivering. They spoke so softly that those seated at the back could hardly hear a thing. And then it was my turn.



I feel so edgy at first but as i got further into my speeches, I feel so influential. Everyone in the room were so enthusiatic, so keen. They had their eyes set on me. Each time, I delivered a speech, my voice grew louder, my confidence was building in me! It felt as though I've conquered the whole classroom, I've conquered everyone. I feel that I've won.



And then I ended my speech with a gratitude to everyone for paying attention! The first word that came from the lecturer's mouth - Bravo. I seated back and awaited for what the outcome will be? How will the lecturer react to our presentation? Have i carried out myself well? All these questions were just flooding my mind.



And then the lecturer came forth and commented that we took the risks, we took the challenge to do the topic we were doing! And I hope it really paid off and we could get good grades for that! He looked at my direction and then hail to the lord! "Your english is good!"



Was he refering to me or was I hallucinating? Yes! - He was refering to me! And No - I was not hallucinating. For a moment, I felt so arrogant and I have *the-come-and-punch-me-face*. I've did it again - another lecturer impressed with me. Oh I guessed everything comes with a price. After commenting on my profound english, he handed an assignment for me to do till thursday - It's a newsletter and I have to express my thoughts in it! *So troublesome*. LOL.



Soon after, his lesson ended and I proceeded to the school's cafeteria to grab a bite. So so famished; didn't take my breakfast and I have been working really hard on my project during the morning class. :) Afterwards, I went to Esplanade with my classmates to watch 'VALENTINE' in the screening room at the library there.



Initially, we did not even know what show to watch. We had pick this movie titled "The gremlins" but I wasn't too sure that it was entertaining or horrifying enough to scared the sh*t out of me. :) And then I browse through the shelves thoroughly for some freaking good shows but all they had were oldies. Bleah.



I didn't give up of course! And no way was I going to watch 'The Gremlins'! *Browse* *Scan* and my eyes had set upon this show that has a nice looking outer cover at the casing. 'Valentine' - nice title and this got to be the ONE!



Well, I thought I could watch the show ASAP! But we encountered some technical problems with the audio! There were no sounds! How can we watched a show without any sound. It will just be like looking at a dead man who ain't talking! Duh! But after some configurations and help from the librarian, everything was fixed. Finally!



Okay my take on 'Valentine' - Suspense thriller with ratings of 4/5! I was guessing who the killer was and I didn't even get it right. Darn! Good one! Fabulous! Marvellous! *shivers* The screening room was so cold that I was trembling. My cheeks were numb, my palms - icy-cold.



We left the building at 4.37PM and had potato chips and tuna and egg sandwiches for high tea. One of my classmates wasn't feeling too well. So she had to go home. *Sigh* Well, it was perfectly fine for me. There were not much to see at the park next to Esplanade, just some couples kissing and tourists and tour guides.



Time ticked and it was already in the evening. I was too tired and went home afterwards! I had Mutton Chop for dinner and guess what? It has been a long time ever since I ate Mutton Chop. *Yum* *Licks the plate clean; not leaving any evidence behind*. Took a quick shower, use this facial form to get my fairness back. *Hopefully*. And here I am blogging away!



Oh yah, I've known this person a few days ago and I was suprise that both of us have alot of things in common. What will that be? Hmm? *you're not going to know or you might know who you are* I know you are reading my Blog now!





Ciao!





Sunday, May 16, 2004

REALITY TV HAS GONE REALLY WRONG THIS WEEK!



Eye For A Guy



Oh Rachel, you chose Silvert in the first place. Why can't you just be contented with him! In the end, you chose Mark Zee instead. Really, I think that you had chosen the wrong guy. Silvert is much more compatible with you though he's three years older but that age does not matter right?



American Idol 3



America has really eliminated off the wrong person - Latoya London.She is such a great singer. And I cannot believe for the fact that Fantasia was down in the bottom two instead of Jasmine. Why? This week performance - Jasmine didn't really put her best effort and some of her pitches were really very wrong.



Survivor: All Star



Rob and Amber in the final two sets fire with most of the viewers, including me. How could they be in final two. Well, I have to admit that Rob nearly dominated all the challenges but what about Amber? She had a free ride from Rob. They backstabbed, bad-mouthed and lie to the other players. Bad! bad! Bad! And why isn't Gina in Survivor: All Star?



Joe Millionaire



Okay, he has only $4.00 in his bank. LOL. Anyway, I just watched the show just now and he has voted off the wrong girl! Linda wanted Joe to vote her off because she couldn't stand the other girls gossiping about her, and wanting her to go as she was a threat to the other players. Joe, you really like her and Linda like you too. Why did you vote her off! Argh!

Saturday, May 15, 2004

A SHORT BUT SAD STORY



Contributed by Chanel

From: Quasar Aurora Sonic Flare Blitz !#!



Motorcycleeeee...._



A girl and a boy were on a motorcycle, speeding

through the night.

They loved each other a lot..

Girl:" slow down a little.. I'm scared.."

Boy: "No, it's so fun.."

Girl: "please... it's so scary.."

Boy: "Then say that you love me.."

Girl: "Fine..I love you..can you slow down now?"

Boy: "Give me a big hug.."

The girl gave him a big hug.

Girl: "Now can you slow down?"

Boy: "Can you take off my helmet and put it on?

It's uncomfortable and it's bothering me while I

drive."



The next day, there was a story in the

newspaper. A motorcycle had crashed into a

building because its brakes were broken.

There were two people on the motorcycle, of

which one died, and the other had survived...

The guy knew that the brakes were broken. He

didn't want to let the girl know, because he

knew that the girl would have gotten scared.

Instead, he was told the last time that she

loved him, got a hug from her, put his helmet on

her so that she can live, and die himself...



Once in awhile, Right in the middle of an

ordinary life, Love gives us a fairy tale!



Friday, May 14, 2004

MY PROSPECT, MY AMBITION, MY FUTURE



I will be a part-time author and hope that the books that I have written will be a success. I would most probably work in Singapore Telecom or do computer programming. Apart from that, if I do have spare time, I will do volunteer work in community centers. And I will definitely contribute some of my hardwork earnings to the old folks and needy ones.



I will most probably love to owe a bungalow or maybe live in a condominium next door to my parents. I will be having another house in Australia - the place there is absolutely fabulous. I love the countryside, the farms and the friendly people.



Probably I will owe a BMW or a mercedes car, color preference will be white or black. And I will buy another car for my family.



So I guess I have to start saving alot from now on ya?



Ciao!



Thursday, May 13, 2004

AMERICAN IDOL! THE BEST ONE OUT!



I am really disappointed that Latoya London is out. She is a great singer - someone who has a powerful, strong voice and a great personality. I felt that it was really very wrong to vote her off. She should be one of those who could at least make it to top 2 or even win the American Idol.



I really thought that Jasmine would be out this week. She really did not do her best to impress the judges and she obviously didn't sing too well last night. Hit a couple of wrong notes. The best singers are out and now left those bad ones in. Well, actually there's only one and that is Jasmine.



Paula Abdul was in tears, seeing Latoya voted off. The audience were obviously not happy with the results at all. Haiz! No more America! No more. Hope they won't make another blunder by voting Diana or Fantasia out. Please vote wisely!



Wednesday, May 12, 2004

WHY I WON'T BE BLOGGING THAT OFTEN FOR THIS FEW WEEKS



1st -> I am busy with Digital Application Project.

2nd -> I am currently writing a novel. (Wish to complete it soon).

3rd -> I have photoshoots.
MY NEIGHBOUR WATCHED PORN!



DISCLAIMER: This entry may contain explicit content. This event really took place and I actually witnessed it. :p



It was 11.30PM, I was really getting lethargic and sleepy. But before I headed to bed, I watch 'Meet My Folks' airing on mediacorp 5. I was'nt really concentrating due to the fact that I was getting restless. And then it was the commercial break, I headed to my balcony and wanted to slide my window grills close but then came the shock of my life.



I breathe in the fresh air and then scanned the carpark. Nothing much. And then I turned to my right and saw something that caught my attention. What's my first impression - shocked, alongside with, erm, thrilled. Before I get into details...My neighbour's windows are not those which are able to slide but those which are made to pull in and out - if you really know what I mean.



Ok here's what really took place. I saw on the right window's reflection, their television's reflections and I can actually see what shows they were watching. And then I saw vigourous movements on the screen- a lady's head vigorously moving in a sucking motion, her head back and forth. Wasn't too sure what she was really sucking at first. And I thought it was a variety programme and that the lady has to do a dare or a forfeit and that she has to munch or suck on bananas. To me, it seems that way. They couldn't probably watched porn. Why I think that way? - Coz` my neighbour - there are no teenagers or any young single adults and they are married, have children and living with their folks!



Yes, you might be wondering so what? Can't married couples watch porn while their children are so sound asleep in their comfy bed and their folks snoring away. Watching porn at the living room, making love. Sounds kinky huh. Okay back on track. And then I pop my head out of the window alittle further out. I didn't even blink my eyes. What I saw was that the lady was actually sucking a dick! She was motioning the guy's dick in and out of her mouth so fast ad her hands were gripping onto the man's thigh!



Oh wait! No, I am not joining the fun or anything like that but I was curious about. About what actually? - I really wanted to know who that horny fellow was, watching porn in the middle of the night? Could it be the married lady or the married man who is watching porn or maybe both of them?



I continued watching. I was hoping that the window would really capture the reflection of the person who is watching that porno on tv. But still there was no view of him or her. By the way, the person had muted the t.v or that the volume was really low coz` I couldn't hear a thing. Oh silly me, of course, he muted the t.v coz` it's late at night and you wouldn't want to wake up the children with all those hardcore moanings. They might wake up their neighbours too. :p .Now, what was on the tv - the lady was on a table, and the guy began to lick her cunt. Minutes later, he began shoving his entire dick into her cunt. The guy began shoving it harder. Argh man...oh no, I sounded like one pervert.



And then, I caught a glimpse of who it really was. What I saw on the window's relfection - a man, just man - his bald in the middle but had hair at the back of his head and he seems chubby. Not much of a help but I tried to piece up the information I had and began pin-pointing to who it really was. I would strike off the children first. Like duh! And then I strike off all the women in the family out! Now only left the men.

The married man is still very suave and had hair, He always comb to his right side. Ok, my final conclusion - It was the grandpa to the children, the dad to the married couple! Oh my lord!



He's already 70+ and he is still watching porn. Must be deprived from having sexless nights! Geez! Haha. I got what I want - the answers and then headed back to the living room, only to know that 'Meet my folk' has ended. Darn!



Ok Ciao` This will be my last entry for this week. Will continue to blog next week. Busy schedules lah! No choice.

Tuesday, May 11, 2004

FEELING CONNECTED



I feel and have strong connections with these people, that what makes them special friends to me. There's something unique with each one of them. That's why we really clicked.



ADAM: He has been a friend of mine for seven years running. No doubt, we had gone through weal and woes together. We would share our wits, knowledge, humours, nearly and almost everything together. We are very open and would talk about anything. Our jokes are made of sarcasm, there are witty ones, while others are crude. The best friend I had ever had. We share the same interest too! And for the fact, he knows my secrets more than anyone do. Oh, not forgetting, Adam is a good advicer. Very attentive to his surrounding. I like striking witty conversations with him.



JANET: She has been my close friend since Secondary 3, and then we became god-siblings, meaning 'not real blood brother and sister'. She always shower care towards me, sometimes I think it's really too over. She is a very good listener and always encourages me to liven up whne I'm feeling down or moody. She is a nice person to be around with. And she's very talented. She plays piano, flutte, drum, violin and many other musical instruments. It's really good to be around or have a friend that is very talented. But one thing about her is that she's not really that open, so I can't really share some of my secrets to her.



SALIMIE: He's a best buddy of mine. And I could talk nearly about everything to him. He is a very good listener and would be there to comfort me when I'm at the lowest low. I would always tell my problems to him and he would patiently listen to all my craps. Very patient indeed. Still, there are some secrets that I could not share or reveal to him as we are not up to that level yet. He, just like me, are guys with high sex drive. Another term for it is being horny always.



DEVI: My Favourite girl! She is damn humorous, funny and always perky. She has never fail to make me happy. Each time, she tells a joke or merely smile or giggle, I would be laughing away like crazy. I too shares my problems with her and she would lend a listening ear. She has pretty good advices which I would always take up. Sometimes, she just knows what I'm thinking and there's not a need to really tell her what I feel.



MICHELLE: She is one of my buddy. I think that she is very concern towards her friends, but sometimes too over concern. She is very eloquent just like me and potrays herself as a sophisticated rich lady. Never ever did she shun away her friends or me whenever we encounter problems. She sometimes know what I'm thinking and somehow our minds and the way we think are alike. She is very outgoing and shares the same interest as me too. As for this buddy of mine, I can really share all my secrets...yes, i mean all.



YAOXIANG: Even though I merely knew him for three months plus but I think I am really connected with him. Even if we knew each other for 3 or 4 days and became friends, but if we feel that we are really connected, then time is really not the factor. We are very open and I feel that I can talk about everything with him. He is very funny and has always been perky or happy. Never did I ever seen him sad or giving attitudes towards me and the others. He is very caring ...and also very understanding



I wish that I could list all of my friends here but I could only list a few... I am sorry and please don't take it to heart when your names does not appear in this entry. Everyone of you are very special to me!



Ciao!

DULL MORNING



Today it was pretty dull at school. Nothing much to be done, just slacking away. Watched ACACIA, a korean show...the story plot was pretty much okay. Not much of a thrill and suspense 2.5/5. I still give it a pass though it's alittle dull.



Now I am blogging away at I.A class, awaiting other of my classmates to arrive. And there is a freaking I.A phase test - I am quite nervous actually...
23 DAYS MORE TO MY 19th BIRTHDAY



22 days later, I am going for D.A class and skip I.A class but after some consideration, I wouldn't want to skip. Why? My subject teacher haven't mark my test paper yet. And then, I am going to do my Digital Application tutorial.



21 days later, I'm going to sleep sleep and sleep after a long tiring day at school. Most probably I will be blogging away at school, in I.A class, since I've done all the labs and there are no more tests left.Oh not forgetting,last goodbye to my EX who is leaving for a school project to myanmar.



20 days later, still the same thing I am going to sleep sleep and sleep but wait its a friday right? Party time. Most probably I will be going out with my friends or classmates. I think I am going to Erna's house, and going to be fishing at Punggol Park, havent done that for a long time already.



19 days later, I am going out with Adam or Janet or both of them at the same time. Hopefully, they won't adjourned their outings to a later date again like last time. Make up your minds guys!



18 days later, going to rest the whole day...



17 days later, start of school, monday's blue but it won't get to me. Monday is just like any other normal days.



16 days later, I won't be coming to school. Nothing to do. And if I don't, then I would be going for my photoshoot with Adam. Have to take several photos for my portfolio and then will update it to my blogger.



15 days later, going to be really tired after the photoshoots but will be going out with my classmates.



14 days later, still another boring day, but I will try to date someone from IRC.



13 days later, I began to miss my EX.



12 days later, someone like me...



11 days later, I am confused of my decisions and decided to meet the person who like me to ddetermine my final say.



10 days later, I began to miss my EX dearly, and wished I could turn back time and won't let those hurtful things happened.



9 days later, I would be chilling at East Coast Park with my classmates or alone.



8 days later, I am too tired, going to nap the whole day.



7 days later, I must make my decision on who I am going to choose.



6 days later, I still love my EX and wished to wait...



5 days later, my friends will find me silly for still waiting and pinning on something that is really hopeless.



4 days later, the person who liked me suprised me.



3 days later, planning of what to do for my birthday.



2 days later, get more sleep so that I won't feel lethargic on my birthday.



1 day later, getting ready for my birthday.

Monday, May 10, 2004

REVAMPING THE WHOLE BLOGSITE



I've discovered that blogger has change it's style and format. It really surprised me. They had added new templates that I were fond of but I was wondering whether I would still want to use my previous blog background and style. After some thoughts, the final verdict was to change my blog's background and style as I already felt sick of looking at the same thing over again. Thus, I would like to try something new instead.



Well, I thought it was pretty much easy to change it to a different template .. oh but hell no.... I spend 4 freaking hours completing my blogsite. Yeah, I know...by then I should be feeling really frustrated and wanting to give up the whole idea. Yes, I did after two tries and I tried getting back to my previous blog background. But it was not that smooth. Each time I tried to post a new entry, butit does not seem to appear online. I was already very tired of changing my format here and there and re-doing the whole site over and over again.



I took a short break from the whole computer thing and decided to grab a bite. And then took my warm shower. *re-energized!* - That's for sure. Back to my comp I guessed. Shouldn't leave things undone for a long time. And then i try again to post my new entry but still to no avail. I give up the idea totally and move on to another pace. I tried to get the new template back.. Well, so far so good. Everything went well and then came the bad thing.



I tried copying my tag-board and my other files to the brand new site, but each time, they messed up. They were everywhere in my blogsite. I tried putting them on the right side of the site, but they were alittle off. Haiz. Still I did not give up. By then it was already 9. Grrr... I start all over again from square one. This time, I do step-by-step and... Yes! Finally done! Though there's a few cork-up but still, overall, I think I did great. LOL
BEING DIRECT (DUMPING MY HATRED)



One thing that I really hate is that I don't really like people to pin-point my mistakes or make stupid comments on me. It's just plain nonsense. I am who I am and for the fact, nobody can change my lifestyle, the way I talk, the way I potray myself, my characteristics, my capabilities, my humour and lastly, my wits.



NOBODY, let me repeat, NOBODY, can change ME.I like the way I am now. I love myself. I do take criticisms; constructive, but not the destructive ones. If you have anything to say about me, don't go behind my back, say it to my face. If not, you are just plain stupid, dumb, imprudent, ludicrous, risible, hare-brained, witless, bovine, incorrigible and an imbecile. Wow, I'm impressed with my English - it's so profound!!



I may be soft-hearted but don't think other wise and go stepping all over my head. If you think you are the smart dumbass who likes to comment on people, yo're not that smart afterall. I don't like people to give negative comments on me. Well, let me tell you this. I can say 101 bad things about you and tarnish your reputation. I can bring you down till you are completely shameless of yourself. Yes - shameless.



Well, that's all I have to say.



Disclaimer: To those reading this Blog entry, don't be offended... I really kept it in my heart for so long, that I think I could burst! I have to pour them out. Alas! I'm done.



Ciao!!!

Sunday, May 9, 2004

WISHING ALL MOTHERS AROUND THE WORLD A HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY! STAY HAPPY ALWAYS!



A BUSY SCHEDULE



To start the day off [Morning]



I was awaken by my handphone message tone. *beep* *beep* I opened my heavy eyes slowly and tossed to my right side of the bed. I grabbed my handphone and opened the text message that was sent to me. It read, "Everyone at 1'o clock, meet at Singapore Post, Paya Lebar bus stop, from there we'll take bus number 70 ok... understood?" Sender: Rahila, Sent: 07:53:02. *Yawns* I replied and went back to sleep. *beep* *beep* Another message came in, but it was now 10 minutes past 9, so it wasn't really that bad. I couldn't get back to sleep and got out from my bed and headed to the bathroom...



Minutes later, I log on the net and my MSN Messenger, chit chat with Yao^Xiang for a while and download MU from Tommy - it's the 5th time to be exact that the downloading process has halted and I have to re-download MU again. After that I had to get ready to meet my team leader and members for my project discussion in the afternoon. *Deciding of which clothes to wear* I was actually a little fussy yesterday as I will be meeting one of my new IRC friend later on in the evening, so I have to dress neatly and to be looking presentable. I changed my clothings thrice and re-combed my hair four freaking times. LOL. And then that was it, off I went to meet them



Lazy afternoon, a hot blazing day



I knew I was going to be late as it was already 1 and that was the time I was supposed to meet them. I hailed a cab and reached there thirty minutes later. I rushed to the Singapore Post Macdonald to look for my team members but only to find the team leader there. I thought I was late but I didn't know the rest of my team members were even later than me.



Oh not forgetting, before I met my team members, I had planned to go out with Janet but unfortunately Adam asked me too. If you didn't know from the start, both of them are my best friends but now they are at loggerheads with one another. I agreed to meet up with Janet and her Dover friends but I also agreed to meet Adam, both at the same timing? Hmm, how am I going to accomodate this? Simple. All I had to do was to meet them at the same place and tell both of them at the last minute that I've made a promise to meet both of them but since there can't be two of me, I had decided to meet them at the same time together. So final verdict - We will be going out together. I know Janet will not like the idea of going out with Adam.



I boarded bus number 70 with Rahila and went to Salimie's house first and Fazdzlie told us that he will be late but I had assume that he won't be coming at all. And as for taufik - ??? I have no idea :P Minutes later and yeah, we were already at Salimie's house. Hmm, I've been to his house before but I have yet to take a look at his room. *Curious* Oh, and then I saw, his room painted in red and yellow. Nice combinations. We then proceeded to complete our projects. Time travelled so fast that it was already 4+. Salimie's sister had cooked for us fried noodles with prawns and eggs. *drools*. 5/5. Yum yum! And there was pau with chicken fillings! Oh and yeah, we gossiped at the dining table. Curious about what we gossiped? Ok, this is what we were gossiping about... hmm, I think probably not. It's between us three only, Rahila, salimie and me!



And then Taufik, our other team member arrived. With another, our target of completion was very near. By 6, everything was done. *claps* phew. Finally done. Oh no! Not yet, we have not yet typed it in microsoft word. We only wrote the answers on softcopy. Rahila will be doing all the dirty job! LOL. Hmmm... sorry if I couldn't help much ya?



We went to the bus stop and I have to head to City Hall to meet my chat friend. *Nervous* The bus that I was about to board was soon in sight. But before I left, Salimie commented something.



He says, "Isaac, your dick is big!

I said, "what?" I was laughing away.

He says, "Really..oh are you having a hard-on?"

I said, "Hell No!"

Haha, maybe you all should discover yourself eh? *winks*



The Night



It was 7.19, I was supposedly to meet my chat friend at Body Shop. Oh, let's name my chat friend J. So that it will not confusing and to protect my chat friend's identity. I was pretty much waiting, and then I saw J! Gosh. J was one hot sexy, good-looking person. But J didn't saw me! LOL. J was too good for me and I felt so tensed up - haven't felt this way before since a few months already. I dared not approached J. I text a message to J what I was wearing and told J to approach me instead. I was too afraid that I really wanted to talk to someone over the phone for a while to calm myself down...



I called Su`aad and I told her about my chat friend. She advised me to aprroach her as not to idle around. I was caught up talking to her that I had almost forgot that I was feeling nervous and then I was caught by suprised. J appeared in front of me. I hang up the phone and my nervousness came back. J was ever so gorgeous. My heart was beating fast. "Hi!" I smiled. J smiled back. I didn't relly talk much. There was a few things that were whirling in my mind. Firstly, J is too gorgeous looking and I am just average looking or maybe to her, I am ugly. Secondly, I was too shy, I was so speechless. Thirdly, I don't want to talk nonsense in fear of giving J bad impressions of me.



We decided to grab a bite at lau pat sat but decided to settle at the nearest food courts later onwards. We went to Peninsula Plaza's foodcourt. I wasn't really that hungry so I ordered drinks instead - hot cappucino. Ah! Delicious!



Just the beginning...

J was somewhat very fluent in english - maybe lah! Very sophisticated but judging J, J is somehow keeping a few secrets from me. We had our dinner and J proposed that we would find some quiet place to chit chat. Hmm? Was that a hint?



We walked past Clarke Quay and Boat Quay, and then walked in the underground passageway. There was silence. I didn't really talk. J was always doing the talking instead. I really felt so vulnerable. I don't really know why. And then, J tripped over a stone, nearly lost balance but manage to prevent from falling. Oh, if J did fell, I think it would be such a disgrace and I would be laughing away. J was somehow a little arrogant. :P



Then we were getting tired. "Where shall we sit down and chit chat?" she said. I looked around and saw somewhere quiet a place where nobody will interrupt us ---- Fort Canning Park. We started walking up the stairs; it was rather steep. We walked and walked but couldn't find a place to sit. We walked yet again and finally saw a small hut. But to our disappointed, it was occupied by a couple. We had to walked again. Haiz. getting really lethargic and tired. We climbed up more steep stairs. We were almost on top of the park.



Ah! and there was a bench for us to sit. I was perspiring. Gawd! It was humid too up there. And then something sensual began to happen. I saw J gazing at me and then, I looked at J back. We smiled to one another. I took up the courage and held J's hands, still looking into J's eyes. Somehow, our face were getting closer and I could feel J's warm breathe. And then our lips began to lock. We started off with a soft peck on our lips and then we started moving our lips vigorously. I was placing my arms around J's waist and J was doing the same too. Our kiss became passionate. I began to french kiss J. Our tongues were entwining and J was carressing my back while I place my hands on J's hips.



I flung J's hair backwards and caressed J's face. Smooth and flawless complexion J had. I continued french kissing J. And then...

Friday, May 7, 2004

Many Updates To Be Done. Its Going To Be Pretty Long.



I WANT TO HOG THE LIME LIGHT



I was never popular when I was young. Maybe I should rephrase my sentence. I am socialble, I am friendly, I do have friends, but I want to be popular. I am an attention seeker. I want to be recognised by people.



It started off when I was in Secondary three. I started to socialise more - with people from my batch and those juniors. I went to IRC(INTERNET RELAY CHAT), my school channel, #Henderson and chatted there. I began knowing those juniors, I thought it would be a better way to socialise with people younger than me first and then get to knows those seniors of mine. The first person I knew was Katherine and then Cindy. They then started introducing me their friends from their class and soon, i knew everyone of them in that particular class.



My popularity soon started to grow, the juniors soon introduced me to the juniors from the other classes and then to the seniors. And thats when I started knowing Katherine Lim, Vernon, Lea Hai, Wei xiong and many more. Apart from that, I've got together with the people of the same batch as me. It was pretty much easy to get along with them as we have particularly many things in common and we are of the same age. But those people were not enough for me. I need my popularity to grow, to expand beyond the horizons. I got greedy.



I yet again went into the IRC(INTERNET RELAY CHAT) and began chatting in all different kinds of channels from #teens to #singapore to #melayu to #pokemon to #ahlian to #witches to #charmed to #lesbians. I want more friends. I want to be noticeable. I started planning channel outings for different kind of channels. I've been to most of the gatherings and I've got so many friends that I could even forgot their names and when I got to know them.



But when I got older, my thinking became mature. More friends? Why do i need alot of friends? Why should I seek attention. I should only have a group of friends who I can go out with, talk to, confides my problem to and so on. It could be quite troublesome to have so many friends sometimes.



And soon, the number of friends that I had decreased. Why? - It's either I was too plain lazy to contact everyone single one of them or that they had changed their numbers. But still I have a certain groups of friends who i can go out with, talk to with and etc and definitely I won't forget them.



Years have passed, and then my greed came back again. I started to chat again, socialising with people of the same or even different calibre from me, people of different races and religions. I want to hog the limelight again...



Even till now!



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SMALL BUT YET BIG ACHIEVEMENTS



1. The Platforms and The Man-Made Bridge



It started off with torrential rains in the morning but as soon it was in the mid afternoon, it stopped. I went to Kallang River with my classmates. It was cloudy and breezy. We thought we could sit at the spot that we usually chill out but it was taken by a few uncles. We had to walk a distance before we could find another spot to sit down and relax. I was darn hungry, so I had to grab a bite first before venturing into other activities. It will be boring if I would only stay at the same exact spot, not doing anything except for chit chatting with my classmates.



Then, I decided to take a stroll at the side of the river. My shoes sank into the wet dampened earth, and making trails along the sands. My shoes were dirtied and soiled but I didn't really care since I already knew the consequences for walking there during an after raining session. And then something caught my attention. A short walking platform, floating on the water; it's like a bridge. I was really tempted to get onto that platform but what stopped me from doing so was that the platform was a meter away from the dry ground, from the sands. I have to walk in the water to make it there. *Thought* - By the time I reached the platform, half of my body, from my toes up to my waist will be wet.



And then Su`aad noticed the platform too. She, just like me, was tempted. She was ready, with her sandals off, wanting to try out getting onto the platform. She urged me to do so too since I already had that idea in mind. I hesitated, telling her that I will be soaking wet but she told me that it will be fun and that sometimes, we must try to do new things in life, venturing into the different aspects of life. I yet again hesitated. The other classmate of mine, Salimie, joined Su`aad. After some considerations, I told myself that it wouldnt hurt abit to try out. I folded my trousers till it was my knee cap length and slowly proceeded into the water. Cold. By the time, I reached the platform, half of my body was wet. Now, the next thing I had to do was to get onto the platform. I hold onto the two poles by the sides of the platform and slowly got up. It was not pretty hard at all.



Now there were two on the platform. Salimie and I. Still, Su`aad was struggling to get onto the platform. Salimie advanced to the edge of the platform and pulled Su`aad up. And then something happened. The platform began to sink. It couldn't hold the mass of three. Something had to be done before the whole thing would sink it.



I looked back and saw that there was another platform attached to the platform that I was standing on. I moved back. The platform slowly emerged back up. Su`aad was finally on it. I told them to proceed to my platform. there were no worries as the platform that I was on was much more longer and stronger that it was able to hold the three of us. We rejoiced for making it this far but then there was yet another obstacles. Now, the water is deep as we were already meters away from dry ground. No mistakes should be made or we will be swept by the current.



From where I stood, two to three meters away was another platform but it was thrice the length and width of the other two platforms. From the looks of it, it could hold up to more than 10 people. There was a big gap between the two platforms. Salimie decided to abandon the idea of proceeding ahead. We had no choice but to turn back. Firstly, the current was too strong and we would wait for the low tide to come before our second attempt.



We chit chat for a while and ate some tidbits, and also to dry ourselves up but I was thinking that we will still get wet even if we dry ourself now. Because we will still be going back into the water. This time, Salimie called it quits. Tired he was and that he wanted to spend more time with Erna. We all agreed with him and called it quits too. Salimie wore his shoes and decided to take a look at the place we always chill - whether those uncles have left the premises. I was left with Su`aad. She too was about to wear her sandals but I told her not to.



I find it rather a waste if we don't finish out task. To me, getting to the end of the very last platform was a form of a task and also a challenge to me. I told Su`aad that I would like to give it another try. This time, we were prepared. I saw a wooden plank; it was not that heavy to carry anyway. In no time, I was on the platform. It began to sway as there was an object on the platform: the wooden plank, with me. I paused for the platform to stop swaying. And then I kept on moving till I was at the last platform, standing at the edges, balancing myself while connecting the wooden plank from the platform to the other.



I lifted the plank and slowly moved it to the other platform. And then I lowered it. The two platforms were connected. Success!



2.CONQUERING MY FEAR



Su`aad and I give each other a pat at the back. But the worst has yet to come - crossing to the other platform with just the long, narrow wooden plank to act as a bridge. We looked at each other in dismayed. The current was still and its going to be quite a distance to get across to the other side.



It wasn't nice if I would have asked Su`aad to cross first. As she is a girl and she's not pretty good at balancing, fearing that she might fall and be swept away by the strong current, I urge her to stay where she was and agree to the decision of me crossing over first. Maybe I could balance better than her, but that doesn't neccesarily means that I could balance really well.



I took the plunge. I went for it. But fear took over me. I was numb. Looking at the gushing water and the narrow plank freaked me out for a while. "How am I going to do this?" Though its not that far or high above the ground, I still fear. Maybe to certain people who will be reading this Blog must be going like, "Oh come on, its just a short distance, I think I can do it without even hesitating." Yeah maybe you could by the way i descript here but if you were actually there, I guessed you might be having second thoughts of doing it.



I close my eyes and took a deep breathe, "alright". I took my first step and then another. Suddenly, the wooden plank began to sway alittle. I froze. And again and again. Huge winds came blowing right at us and the plank causing the plank to tremendously sway. "Don't panic", I comforted myself. "Everything will be okay." I wanted to drop to my knee and crawl instead but the plank wasnt wide enough.



The wind was calm. I began to take my next step. Nearly there... My heartbeats began thumping loudly. There...Inches away from success. I grinned and looked back, "I'm going to succeed!" I shouted to Su`aad, when suddenly, there was another strong gust of wind. I was caught off guard. I missed my steps.



That was it, I thought. I'm going down. I'm going to be swept off with the strong current. But no... my fear was overwriting all my other kinds of emotions. I made a dash to the platform before I would plunge into the water.



I regain my balance back and let out a huge sigh of relieve. I made it! I was jumping with joy. As for Su`aad, after what she had witnessed, she dare not to do what I've done. I took alot of courage and conquering my fear wasn't that easy.



3.The Mangoes That Were Force To Fall



<1530hrs> This time, Su`aad and I were the ones to go and have a look on whether the uncles were still there. They were gone but now there was a new group of people occupying the spot. We were lazy to go back to the spot we were at as it will be a long walk and quite a distance away from where we were now. We sat a few meters away from our fav spot.



And then something else caught my attention. Mango trees! Fabulous. Absolutely fabulous. Su`aad and I proceed to the trees and gazed up Mangoes, mangoes and more mangoes. We were really tempted to get them but the they were too high up and it was beyond our reach. I was disappointed. I scanned the mangoes - there were big and small ones, riped ones and those that are not yet riped ones.



The sun was glaring at my eyes. I looked away and moved a few steps backwards. Woops! I tripped over a small log. And then an idea struck me. I looked at the mangoes again and then back to the log. If I were to use this log as a boomerang, it will definitely hit the mangoes to the ground. I tried but it missed. And I tried again and it missed again. I did not stop, I did not want to give up. I know I could do it.



I tried yet again and wha lah! one of the mangoes fell to the ground. I ran to it and took it by my palm. It was the riped ones! And it smells nice. I didn't stop at one. I kept on going. Another one fell, and another and then another and yet again another. Greed took over me but after for quite some time, I had tired myself out. But I was satisfied by the number of mangoes I got. 60 to be precise. And Su`aad got 5.



>>>Three big achievements in a day... I was really happy that I was able to do things that I've never done before.<<<



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STRESSED OUT



For the past two days and till now, I was and still is preoccupied with alot of things. I've not yet done my Thinking Skills Project - 35 slides to be done in Microsoft Powerpoint but we have less than 3 - 4 days to have it done. It's not that we were given a short period of time to do but that we kept on delaying on doing the project.



The next thing I have to do was to complete my homework - Digital Application tutorial 11 by next week, thursday to be precise. I've not done a single thing yet and have not even glance through the questions. Probably I had to many things to worry about. But worrying doesnt really leads me to anywhere. I would probably have it done by tuesday - hopefully.



The Digital Application practical is one tough thing to be done. I've not yet complete the drawing of the circuit diagram on the paper and I've only 1/4 done doing the original designs hands on. I am afraid that the LEDs will have problems and won't be able to light up. But I should set that fear aside and concentrate on finishing it first. Whatever happens next and if it does not work, then I have to do troubleshooting.



Test, test and more test...This coming Monday, there will be a trial Digital Electronic test. Though the marks are not recorded but I have to really know how I really perform so that I will actually know how I will perform on the actual day and paper. And talking about the real online exam, it will be on the 27th of May. And not forgetting there's Internet Application test next week, on the very first lesson of Internet Application.



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