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Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Ice rain in Singapore

Yes, I managed to witness it! At first I thought someone was throwing ice from above but it was actually raining ICE! ok, fine. hailstones then. LOL.

the last


You’re none of them because you’re all of them. You are who I love; the girl on the pedestal, the fantasy the make-believe things that are actually true. You are what I love; the depth, the inside jokes, the best friend. You are when I love; a new history is being started with you. We are the young lovers our older selves will someday reminisce about. You are where I love: because I’d go anywhere, just to be with you. You are why I love: because before you, I didn’t truly understand what I was looking for. Now that we found each other, you’ve given my past and future meaning. You are the sixth. You are the last.

Kota Tinggi Waterfall













Goodbye William

It's been a pleasure knowing you for the past one year. Short it may be, but we became so close to one another. Take care of yourself when you are in Indonesia and spread your love to the students there!

Blow me one last kiss

A kiss on my lovely brother's cheek!

Monday, June 24, 2013

the 8900th entry - the end of a chapter


Nothing lasts forever, so live it up. Drink it down, laugh it off, avoid the drama. Take chances and never have regrets. Because at one point, everything you did, was exactly what you wanted.

Sunday, June 23, 2013

sunset

kisses when the sun sets. cuddles. best view. love.
why did i even. i'm sorry. really sorry. shouldn't have. shouldn't have. shouldn't have. 

The Party at Tantric













i . hate . to . be .so . vulnerable

i . really . really . hate . to . be . so . vulnerable.

Dining at Saizeriya

a long day of hardwork, we were treated to the delicious food of saizeriya by fashion designer and stylist, jen su.


















if you know, don't speak

if you read what i've wrote and if you're someone i know dearly and want to ask me about how i feel in person, DONT. just leave the way it is. let me finish writing till the end. read. keep quiet.

i know. i know

lovely song from jewel.

as. times . passed . by

every night, i feel hurt. i feel disappointment. i feel sadness. everything in one. i hate to be lonely. so every night, i will go out with my friends. every night. to avoid the emptiness. sometimes, i feel i am a nuisance to my friends. taking their precious time away just to comfort me. just to be with me. one of them texted this to me, 'i love you very much bro. and it pains me to see you like this. i know it hurts really badly but please don't do anything stupid tat you're gonna regret afterwards. if you wanna drink to numb the pain, i understand. but u cant handle urself alone. u r not alone. never have been. let us carry some of your burdens like u have carried ours.' i was deeply touched. why am i such a weakling. come on, it's just one of those break ups. but after some thinkings, i realized its not just one of those break ups. he was important to me. that's why it matters. this break up matters. because i love him alot. how i wish i can turn back the time. but no. time don't rewind itself. 

the . end . of . a . season.

i've always been the strong person. i've always been the one taking care of others. i've always been the one making people happy. i'm a happy person. i'm someone who loves to crack jokes. i thought i was strong enough but i realized i am not. for the past week, it's been dreadful for me. so, so dreadful. i was not a happy person though i had to keep a brave front from everyone. until i break down again and again and again. my friends had to pull me back up everytime that happens. i've never been this sad in my life before. well, maybe when my late grandmother died and maybe when i broke up with my ex whom i had relationship for almost 3 years. and now i am sad again. devastated. i always keep telling myself, my life is like a storybook or should i say novel. with plots and twisted endings. or like a drama serial. has season 1 ended, i asked. with a sad ending. but it depends on how you play the ending out. i wanted to choose a happier ending. but it ended up being otherwise. i'm feeling scared. i'm feeling hurt. but that's enough. it's been a week and a half i'm feeling like i'm in the dumps. no one that were not close to me knew i was unhappy. because i was trying to look happy in front of them. hard it is. but that's life. i thought of ways to make myself happy again but everytime i am in an empty room, sadness lingers in me. my friends tried to help me. i felt better but i still feel hurt. i have to move on. but what's stopping me. is this really the end, i asked myself. i tried every other methods to get rid of this emptiness  and sadness in me but all else fails. then i realized, maybe, just maybe, i will just write my feelings down on my blog like writing a dear diary. and it seems to be helping. because i love to write. i love to pen down my emotions. i've not been doing that for the longest time. it's all photos and photos and photos on my blog. but i need to write something down. something more than just uploading photos. i guess this is the end of a season or a chapter. one of my good friends told me, let go, set it free, and let nature takes its course. and if you are really meant for each other, you'll come back to each other's arms again. i'm mad at myself for what has happened. but it's been done. it's over. now... move on.

Friday, June 21, 2013

pool/pool/pool/with/the/crazy/peeps

no, fyi, elayne isn't taller than me. lol. she tipped toed.









hanging out with my besties. and sweet javius went all the way to mustafa to get masks for us.