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Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Rising Me

I am happy that I am moving one step forward to my goals.

My visions are drawing near.

It's going to be a new year soon.

I am feeling rather nervous.

This year has made me more independent. I have learn to rely on myself and not others often. I am very happy with who I am now.

New year, a more happier me.

I always worry about things. I worry about this and that. Everything.

Now I will not worry too much of things revolving around me.

Ironic

Isn't it ironic that on my previous entry I wrote how much I love you and how much I care for you.

And now I have to write some things that hurt me.

You told me that you will take care of youreslf and not get drunk or probably get that high.

And there you are getting high.

No messages in between, which was fine with me because I know you are busy with your clients.
The most disappointing moment was...

For the past events you attended, you would call me at the end of the day saying, "Honey, you see I'm not drunk! Whee!"

And now ushering to the new year, minutes before our anniversary, you sounded so high. In addition, there was no calls from you, nor sms.

And when I tried to tell you that you are somehow wrong but not totally wrong and when I pointed out your mistakes you said, " OK, BYE!"

How interesting.

I can't call you now because you are high. And when you are high, and when I tell you things, you forget everything I said the next day.

Now, its not my fault for getting angry.

This is the time when it is your fault and don't ever say its not your fault.

Till then, I will wait for your call with at least a sorry and explanations.

I don't think its unreasonable.

There's no fight.

There's no quarrel.

Its not my fault because

1. I am not drunk.

2. I am not high.

3. I didn't shout at you. I was just telling you how disappointed I was.

4. Writing this entry doesn't serve to shame you or etc. It is for me to write to tell you your mistakes. Because when I do tell your mistakes over the phone, we end up quarreling.

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Constant Love

Its been a year and two months and my love for you still is growing.

Growing.

Growing.

Growing.

Muacks! I heart heart you!

From Within

When there's no one else, look inside yourself, like the oldest friend,
just trust the voice within.

Monday, December 29, 2008

Welcoming Hakim and Bob

Hello Bob and Hakim!

Welcome back to Singapore!

Though we have not chatted with each other since army days, I still remember both of your wacky antics very much!

Welcome back and hope we will meet again soon!

Fly

As the year is coming to an end, we are force to yet make resolutions for ourselves.

For the year 2009, I will not make any resolutions.

I will live every day to the fullest and do the things I want to do.

Let us usher in to the new year 2009!

Charitable Milano!

Although the Charmed drama series ended long time ago, Miss Milano is always seen doing charitable work!


Buffy, The Vampire Slayer and the Charmed were two of my favorite shows!

Throwing Shoes At President Bush

Sunday, December 28, 2008

Temporal Shift

Some friends say i'm the type of person whom should be borned earlier. I mature faster. I think like my seniors. I prefer dressing older than the rest. I prefer talking to people elder than me.

I watch tv dramas since young. At home. At my relative's house.

I love catching shows on tv. They are so.. touching. romantic.

But now, i found out...

The world is no longer as beautiful as what i thought they were.

Touching scenes is not as simple as running across a few streets in japan to reach your girlfriend's house to give her a bunch of pink-tulips with a warm & sincere apology.

No longer can u find empty streets where both of u can light fire-crackers & dance & jump together with the joy of the other companion.

She will lift her arms into the tepid wind & scream to relief stress while i slowly hug her from the back.

No.

I masked my glamour.

I masked scenes by quietly making these miracles happen for the mere joy of satisfying my innocent warmth.


I masked all these.

And now i will slowly unmask everything.

Cheesy Hotdogs!

Everytime I go to the cinemas, cheesy hotdogs are a must!


I am going to watch my last movie for the year; Yes Man.

My 2nd Genting Trip

These photos were taken months ago but I only managed to upload all of the photos now. Muahaha! Silly me!

It took me like 3 hours to upload all the photos to blogger.

A photo will tell a thousand words. How about 106 photos? What does that tell you?

I shall let the photos speak for me.

































































































It was an enjoyable trip to Genting!