Look Back At 2004: The Good



Even though the year has been bad for me, I still have good times and good memories to cherish of.



I was glad that my fellow classmates had think highly of me and thus appointed me to be the organiser for the chalet times and times again.



One of many happy days were when I was staying at the 3 days and 2 nights chalet with them. That very time was the best moments in my life.



And then I celebrated my birthday three times; 2nd June with my parents and they bought me an expensive Haagen Daz ice-cream cake, 3rd June with my best friends and yet again, I received a cake from them too. Not forgetting presents.



On the 11th of June, I celebrated with my fellow classmates and also it was Erna's chalet. Yet again I received presents from them.



Then on November 4th, I met someone special and on 22nd November, I was attached to that special someone.

Apart from that, I was re-united with my long lost godbrother and found another godbrother who is equally good as my long lost godbrother.

Signing Off,

Shah Rizal Isaac

Look Back At 2004: The Bad



I was attached at the beginning of the year, 1st January of 2004 to be precise. I thought my ex and I would have a fruitful and everlasting relationship but I was wrong.



Our relationship barely lasted more than 3 months. We broke up and patch up on two different occasions. I was considering a reconcillation but was snub by my ex for another guy.



The dumb me waited and waited till I rot to death. And when i decided to give up, my ex started to take the initiative of a reconcillation. But it was too late. My feelings for my ex was no longer there.



It was a rough time for me back then.



And then there was the chalet I organised in March. Food was aplenty but what was lacking was entertainment. As an organiser, I failed. But overall, I was glad to know that every single one of them enjoyed the whole event.



Now, I'd learnt how to do a proper planning and would make a comeback for the chalet that will be held this coming March 2005.



At school, I was stressed out by my Digital Application and Digital Electronic. I was frustrated with my practical works as the application that I was handling did not work properly.



I nearly gave up but with the guidance and reassurance of my lecturer that I would do well, I made it.



Before the June school holidays started, I lost my precious Nokia 6600 handphone in the school library. I was flabbergasted when the teacher in charge refused to do anything about my lost property.



Apart from her incompetence, their surveillance cameras are of no use too. When asked to play back the area that I had lost my handphone from, they had to dismissed it as the surveillance camera is blocked by a wall.



As I was in a panicky state, I did not think of the possibility of aproaching the principal and informing him of the situation. My bad.



I went home, faced my dissapointed mum and felt that I was such a sore loser. But I felt better the next day.



Yet again, I was unpleasantly suprised to know that I had owed the school dat due books. My bad again. I returned all of the books but was confronted by the teacher in charge informing me that I had not returned one of my books.



Time and again, I assured her that I did so by depositing the books in the book drop and I would not be accounted for any lost books.



Two weeks after my birthday which falls on the 3rd June, I quarrelled with my godsister cum best friend cum secondary classmates of 7 years.



We hurled vulgarities at one another and I stoop to a level whereby I posted mean factful stuff about her in my blog. But now I regret of what I did back then.



And because of that I lost a dozen of readers who were her friends and I received hate mails as well.



A month had passed and I thought everything would be over. But unexpectedly, someone imitated my nick in IRC (Internet Relay Chat) and abuse my blog page.



Soon after, everything went well.



The month of September came and that is the start of my hamper business with my eight other friends. As I was not convinced that the hamper business would do well, I quit halfway leaving a bad impression on all of my eight friends.



I felt a sense of defeat.



And then I met one of my blog readers whom I thought was trustworthy. But I was wrong yet again.



Because of my bad judgement, I had to pay 289 dollars for the handphone bills that he had chalked up. I was left to clean his bloody mess. Time was running out. I broke down. I cried.



Weeks before this happened, I lost two another handphones, Nokia 6600 and Nokia 3100 at Taman Ho Swee. Well, to be precise, they were stolen.



I felt lost and alone. All I wanted to do was to vanish from the face of the earth. And to make things worst, I rejected a course in Nanyang Poly. How bloody stupid I was.



What a terrible year I had!



But Jacelyn Tay once said; it's not the fall but how you pick yourself up matters.



Signing Off,

Shah Rizal Isaac

Harrassed By A Girl



This little boy has suffered alot. He has been harrassed by the same girl times and times again.If only he know how to get rid of her or maybe defend himself.







The Little Girl: Hey you! *Pulls his shirt* You shall obey my every commands or you will suffer!



The Little Boy: *Defenceless and shocked* Okay...

The Little Girl: I want to touch you! You shall not shout or scream, understood? Or else you shall suffer!

The little girl started fondling the little boy's chest.

The Little Girl: Ahhh! This feels good. You do have muscular chest even though you are still a kid. It's so hard.... let me play with it!

The Little Boy: Let me go, please... I'm getting horny.

The Little Girl: Shut your bloody trap or you shall suffer! Now, moan for me!

The little boy obeyed her every commands and moan as loud as he was told to.

The Little Girl: That's more like it. And now I am going to kiss you! Muahaha!

The Little Boy: Have mercy on me. I already have a girlfriend... *Starts to cry*

The little girl became aggressive and pushed the little boy to the chair.

The Little Girl: Oh yeah! Let me feel you. *She starts to move her hands down to his genital area.*

The Little Boy: Let me go bitch!

The Little Girl: I'm not done yet!

Minutes passed...

The Little Girl: I'm satisfied. Now, you belong to me!!!

The Little Boy: No!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Zombies Attack



I was visiting my secondary school to give presents that I had bought for a few teachers who had taught me there.



I walked into the entrance gate and saw that the school was totally deserted even though it was on a school days. There were no parked cars, no students, no teachers and principals.



Spooky.



I decided to visit my English Teacher, Miss Sally Ng at the staff room. As I walked up the stairs, I could hear creaking noises which really irates me.



As I took another step, I nearly slipped and fell. I glanced down and saw blood on the stairs. Apparently they were fresh blood!



Shocked!







Too afraid to continue, I decided to get out of that place. I ran down the stairs and make myself scarce from that eerie school.

As I was approaching the entrance gate, I saw dozens of people walking in a zombie like manner towards me. I ran to the design and technology block which was located across the field.

And then I saw my classmates and two of the school teachers who were actually human as they were walking properly.

I told them to run as for zombies are after us but they did not head my advice and laugh instead.

I was flabbergasted. I advanced to my design and technology teacher to start his car and bring me along with him as for I do not want to be killed by the zombies.

They were advancing fast.

My design and technology teacher refused to start his car as he did not believe in this nonsense.

Afterwards, someone grabbed my shoulder. And the next thing I know, someone bit my neck.

That was the end of me. I woke up feeling petrified.

Signing Off,

Shah Rizal Isaac

Botox Aftermath







My face is tight and cramp as the doctor just injected botox to my face. I can't laugh for the next 24 hours or my face will crack!



Signing Off,

Shah Rizal Isaac

Black Santa Claus



A week before Christmas, I was shopping at Heartland Mall with Ashy when suddenly we discovered something strange, something that caught our eyes.



Across us was someone who looked like Santa Claus but the only difference between the real Santa and him was that he was black and he does not really has a face.



We advanced to him from behind and took some shots of him bullying the kids.







Black Santa: Go away kid! I don't have any presents for you. You have been bad this year. Go! Shoo.



The kid with the cap: I want my presents!



Black Santa: Shut up and get lost!



The kid with the cap: You're not the real Santa! You're a fake!



Black Santa: DOH!



The Kid's Mum: *Covered her mouth in disbelieves*

The kid started to cry so loudly that he attracted the attention of the passer-bys. Afraid, Santa decided to give in and had to use his own pocket money to buy the bloody gifts for the kid.

Black Santa: Alright! Shut up or I won't give you any presents.

The kid with the cap: Yay! Presents!

Black Santa: *Murmering to himself* Bloody kid!

Signing Off,

Shah Rizal Isaac

Merry Christmas!



During this time of the year, I would be out partying but not today. I'd been out for the past few days and its time for me to rest at home.



It feels weird though and terribly, I have nothing to do but only to play my darn stupid game, MU Online or probably sleep to recuperate my energy.



*Yawns*



MU Online is a great game to play but it oftens lag or I would be disconnected from the server time and again after minutes of playing the game.



Amidst my game just now, I was disconnected yet again. It really irritates me alot. So I have decided to do something else to keep myself preoccupied throughout the day.



And that will be Blogging!



I remembered the previous two Christmas I spent with my best friends. We went out on Christmas Eves and party all night long. And by the time it was Christmas morning, we were dead tired.



But last year's Christmas was a sad one for me.



After my fruitful trip with my best friends, I went home really early in the morning to prepare my gifts for the special someone whom I was dating back then.



I took a cab to that someone's place hoping to deliver the gifts myself to that someone's doorstep. Feeling excited and nervous at the same time, I was hoping that special someone would appreciate my gifts.



As I got out from the cab, I realized that I had forgotten or in another words, I couldn't remember which floor my special someone was living at.



Nevertheless, I took a stab and decided to settle for a floor of my choice, a floor which I think it's the floor that my special someone is living at.



I rang the doorbell but nobody answered. A few more attempts and that's it, I thought.



Still, nobody answered. I gave up but abruptly, an idea struck me. I decided to ask that special someone's neighbor to deliver the gifts instead.



At first they were reluctant but after persuasions, they agreed to it. I went back, feeling happy.



At night, I messaged my special someone but was crestfallen to know that my special someone had not received the gifts yet.



My speculations were probably that I had delivered the gifts to the wrong floor or that the neighbors wanted the gifts to themselves.



Sigh.



Signing Off,

Shah Rizal Isaac

Wrong Moves; I Hope Not



I was given an opportunity to advance in my studies but I rejected the lecturer's offer as I am already contented at where I am currently studying now. All I want is to finish the course that I am currently taking and then plan for my future in the - well - future.



The additional course that was offered to me will take place after my school cirriculum hours which will be on every Friday afternoon. Taking up my free time is a definite NO. I need to utilise my time wisely as I am preoccupied with a lot of things.



And besides, even if I do take up the course, I do not think that I am able to commit myself as for the course that I am currently undertaking is similar to the one that was offered to me.



Therefore, I rejected the offer.



Some of my classmates thought that I had made a wrong decision in the first place but soon after they had to know that it was a decision for me to make and they have to respect that. Period.



A week back, I received an e-mail from XXXX twice regarding an offer to write and publish books. I had to reject his offer as I think I am not up to standards yet. Persistent, he sent me a third e-mail, telling me the benefits of it.



But still, I rejected his offer.



Aren't I stupid to reject two such good offers?



I'm not. Another apparent reason would be that I want spend more time with my love ones, Ashy, my two godbrothers; Jay and Amal and my family. They are my first prority.



The writing job can wait. And as for the course thingy, I am already studying it right now. The only difference is that the one that was offered to me is more advanced.

So, no fret!



Signing Off,

Shah Rizal Isaac

Everything Happy; Good Memories



Author's Notes: This entry is super long ( 3000+), so get yourself something to munch on while reading.



I will promise that this entry will not contain any sad stuff! So enjoy!



First off, I want to wish one of my blog readers cum net friend cum MSN friend cum good friend, Yao Xiang, a Late Happy Birthday! Well, neither I forget your birthday nor was I too busy to wish you. It's all blogger's fault for not wishing you on your birthday itself.



On several occasions of writing this super long entry, blogger would abruptly shut down itself or lags, thus leading to this entry to be deleted time and again, unable me to save the entry and forcing me to write it over and again.



Bloody Blogger.



Though I'd known Yao Xiang for a short period of time of 8 months, we are open to one another. We are able to share secrets and talk about anything. I felt as if I had known him for quite long time.



Yao Xiang is someone who is understanding and sensitive towards others' feelings. He's caring towards almost everyone including the people he only knew for a few days, weeks or months.



He's funny and adorable in his own ways. What make people attract to him is his personality that really shines and his special aura.



Once, when I was down and out, he was there for me, lending me a helping hand, bringing me back up to my feet. I will not forget his kindness. Thanks Yao Xiang!



But I'm sorry I had to wish you Happy Birthday the day after your birthday. Greatest apologies for that.



So here I shall sing a birthday song to you!



Happy Birthday to you! Happy Birthday to you! Happy Birthday to Yao Xiang! Happy Birthday to you!



"Boo!"



I looked back and saw my Evil Twin. He was laughing his heads off at me.



"Your singing suck! You suck to the core, Isaac!" And then he threw a pie with rotten egg filings to my pimple-free face.



Splat! My face was overpowered with the rotten eggs smell and smeared with the pie. I was unable to see as some of the sticky egg yolk went into my eyes.



I wiped my face with a towel and looked myself in the mirror, only to discover that dozens of pimples had appeared at my face.



I cried as I was disfigured for life!



"Oh shut up and get over it! You're pathetic!" shouted the Angel. "Go chase after your Evil Twin and stop your whining!"



I stared at the Angel and stuffed a dildo into his mouth. "That's to shut you up Angel! You're suppose to say something nice! Hello! You're an Angel!"



Before I left the room to chase after my Evil Twin, I want to wish Yao Xiang all the best for his future and a good health!



I pointed a middle finger to the Angel and rushed out of the room.



"Hey, for that you're going to be one sinner greater!" shouted the Angel.



Minutes passed and it seems I had lost track of my Evil Twin once again. He's just to fast for me. I was about to give up when suddenly a teenage girl approached me.



I was unable to greet her as I was still panting after all that running.



And then she started to mumble.



"Can you speak up?" I guestured to her.



Seconds later, she burst into laughter. "You know what? My name is Susie and I got a story to tell you! I've been keeping this from anyone for quite a long time and I can't stand any longer. I have to tell someone!"



I stared at her, confused.



"My sister is a very intelligent woman when it comes to "book smarts," but a little naive in the ways of the real world. She used to work as a waitress, which I won't knock, because it IS a hard job.



But when the cooks told her to go to the basement (restaurant had no basement) to get the dehydrated water, she searched for the basement entrance for an hour before realizing she'd been the butt of a joke.



Another time, one of the salad girls had been busy, so my sister decided to make the salad herself. Just as she was carrying it to the customer, the salad girl grabbed her and said "what are you doing?"



My sister said "well, she asked for the dressing on the side." You guessed it- she had put a little salad in the middle of the plate and poured dressing around the edges!"



After she had told the story to me, she laughed loudly to herself. I looked at her in bewilderment.



"Oh! Here's one more!" Susie said.



I stared at her, shocked.



"One day I was working in the office at my college. I was asked to phone a list of 20 students and tell them that their exam for that Friday had been cancelled. So after I got to about the 10th person I realized that this was one of my classes.



I went to lectures during the week and on Friday went to take my exam. But I saw no-one from my class there. Confused, I went to the office to find out what was going on, only to be told that the exam had been cancelled.



The sweet little old receptionist told me that a young girl who sometimes worked in the office had phoned everyone. Perhaps, thought the little old lady, the girl who helped out had tried to reach me but hadn't gotten through.



I felt so stupid since I was the one who phoned everyone. One of my prouder blonde moments."



My eyes grew even bigger.



"And here's another ..." Before she could even finish her sentence, I grabbed her hair and bang her head against the wall. Even though, she was bleeding profusely, she refused to stop laughing.



"Shut UP!" I shouted while I still kept banging her head on the wall.



"Stop it or you will straight go to hell!" shouted the Angel who were chasing me from afar.



I ran and manage to side track the Angel. I let out a huge sigh of relieve. Muahaha!



Anyway, since it's near to Christmas and the year is about to end, let me share with you all the good memories I had.



Let's kick it off with the good memories I had for the year of 2004.



I remembered the times I spent with my classmates at the chalet I organised in March. Even though, it was a three days and two nights event, many good things happened and the chalet was a blast.



I enjoyed my time with them. My best buddies and I would go to the beach and talk gibberish stuffs. We played UNO cards in the chalet even though we knew it was a boring game.



We dared one another to visit the haunted house near that area. We encountered shortage of food but was soon resolved when we all chipped in two dollars each. All I could described about the times we spent back then was wonderful.



And then there was my birthday celebrations with my family and friends. The day before my birthday, I celebrated with my family and I was thrilled to know that they had bought me an expensive ice-cream cake from Haagen Daaz.



One of my friends told me that celebrating ones birthday before their actual birthday is a bad omen. I heck care as my family really truly wanted to celebrate my birthday on that day. Since my mum cannot spend time with me on my actual birthday itself as she had to work and I will be going out with my friends, it was best for us to celebrate the day before.



The time when they sang the birthday song for me and when I blew the candles out were the best moments of my life.



The following day which was my birthday, I was to spent with my best friends, Raudah, Janet, Jimmy, Anuar and Adam. Little did I expect, they bought me gifts and a cake.



Though the day did not really went smoothly, I was still glad that I had spent my birthday with my closest friends.



The next best thing that happened to me was when I found my true love, Ashy. I am thankful to GOD for giving me a chance to love again and for me to find a wonderful person. That was the greatest gift I ever had.



Talking about relationship, I had just celebrated my 1 month anniversary with Ashy but it was a day earlier. If you're curious of when we got attached, it's on the 22nd November.



I started off the day by dressing up to the nicest and preparing all the presents that I had bought for my dear Ashy. Without a doubt, I felt anxious and excited at the same time.



I wanted our day to be perfect and wonderful. Initially I was supposedly to meet Ashy at 11:00a.m near Ashy's place but I was late by half an hour. Lucky enough, Ashy wasn't angry about it and that Ashy was still getting ready.



I was carrying my bag pack on my shoulder and a shopping bag on my left hand. And in those bags were Ashy's Christmas and 1 month anniversary presents. My initial idea was to give all the four presents that I bought for Ashy individually.



Each present represented something significant or shall I say I had to give the presents at their designated places.



Every single day, my love for Ashy grew deeper and stronger. Without a doubt, I am really falling in love with Ashy and would be hoping to get married to Ashy one day.



We kicked off the day by spending our time at Paragon and that's where I gave my first present to Ashy. The place is elegant and unique and the atmosphere was right. Everything was perfect. Everything was falling into place.



Suprisingly, I received a present for myself in return. I was overjoyed.



Next, we advanced to Takashimaya and yet again, there was another place where I was to give my 2nd present to Ashy.



Smart enough, my dearest Ashy guessed correctly of what was the 2nd present. Technically, I was not shock as I had let the cat out of the bag by revealing to Ashy that the 2nd present was bought from Takashimaya and Ashy once followed me to buy the 2nd present.



And then we proceeded to our next destination. In between, we went to Lido Shaw House as Ashy wanted to survey the Japanese food shop that was located at the basement.



In dismay, the shop was no longer there but we had settled for Japanese breads for our lunch which were bought from another Japanese bakery shop.



We went to borders and settled at the 2nd floor to eat our breads. We felt awkward with people walking past us now and then but soon after, hungers overpower us that we did not really care more.



Amidst, we saw a couple quarreling, a man talking loudly on the phone and a disgusting woman who would not stop digging her nose.



I, feeling disgusted, walked towards the woman and slapped her silly. She cried and beg for mercy but being the merciless me, I threw her out of the window.



As if!



Then we proceeded to Toys R US and that is where I met one of my school dropout, Hafiz. He was slogging at his new found job as a sales assistant at Toys R US but he managed to take 5 minutes of his precious time to talk to me.



I did not want to question him why he did not want to continue his studies as for I might hurt his feelings.



Ashy and I continued our romantic journey. Along the way, I gave Ashy my third present.



Suprisingly Ashy guessed what the third gift was. If Ashy could have guessed it correctly, I believe my fellow blog readers could have guessed what my third present was too.



Sobs!

Our final stop was at the place where I first propose to Ashy and there was where I gave Ashy the final present.

In return I received the most memorable gift from Ashy. I was stunned and lost for words when I saw what it was - A ring with Ashy's name engraved on it.

At the end of the day, both of us were happy and contented with one another.

I love you Ashy! It was the most romantic day of my life!

Anyway, I hope you're all set for Christmas. The stockings are up, the Christmas tree is decorated, and everyone has a present under the tree. You've picked out Christmas candy, the ham is in the freezer, and you’re ready for the big day.



As you head up stairs to bed on Christmas Eve Mom asks you, "Did you leave the milk and cookies out for Santa?" And yes, even that’s taken care of. But are you missing something? What does Christmas really mean? Is it all about getting presents and eating candy canes and waiting up for Santa Claus?



Just a week before Christmas I had a visitor. This is how it happened. I just finished the household chores for the night and was preparing to go to bed, when I heard a noise in the front of the house. I opened the door to the front room and to my surprise, Santa himself stepped out from behind the Christmas tree.



"What are you doing?" I started to ask. The words choked up in my throat and I saw he had tears in his eyes. His usual jolly manner was gone. Gone was the eager, boisterous soul we all know. He then answered me with a simple statement . . .



"TEACH THE CHILDREN!" I was puzzled. What did he mean? He anticipated my question and with one quick movement brought forth a miniature toy bag from behind the tree. As I stood bewildered, Santa said, "Teach the children!



Teach them the old meaning of Christmas. The meaning that now-a-days Christmas has forgotten. "Santa then reached in his bag and pulled out a FIR TREE and placed it before the mantle. "Teach the children that the pure green color of the stately fir tree remains green all year round, depicting the everlasting hope of mankind, all the needles point heavenward, making it a symbol of man's thoughts turning toward heaven."



He again reached into his bag and pulled out a brilliant STAR. "Teach the children that the star was the heavenly sign of promises long ago. God promised a Savior for the world, and the star was the sign of fulfillment of His promise."



He then reached into his bag and pulled out a CANDLE. "Teach the children that the candle symbolizes that Christ is the light of the world, and when we see this great light we are reminded of He who displaces the darkness."



Once again he reached into his bag and removed a WREATH and placed it on the tree. "Teach the children that the wreath symbolizes the real nature of love. Real love never ceases. Love is one continuous round of affection."



He then pulled from his bag an ORNAMENT of himself. "Teach the children that I, Santa Clause, symbolize the generosity and good will we feel during the month of December."



He then brought out a HOLLY LEAF. "Teach the children that the holly plant represents immortality. It represents the crown of thorns worn by our Savior. The red holly berries represent the blood shed by Him.



Next he pulled from his bag a GIFT and said, "Teach the children that God so loved the world that he gave his begotten son." Thanks be to God for his unspeakable gift.



Santa then reached in his bag and pulled out a CANDY CANE and hung it on the tree. "Teach the children that the candy cane represents the shepherds' crook. The crook on the staff helps to bring back strayed sheep to the flock. The candy cane is the symbol that we are our brother's keeper."



He reached in again and pulled out an ANGEL. "Teach the children that it was the angels that heralded in the glorious news of the Savior's birth. The angels sang Glory to God in the highest, on earth peace and good will toward men."



Suddenly I heard a soft twinkling sound, and from his bag he pulled out a BELL, "Teach the children that as the lost sheep are found by the sound of the bell, it should ring mankind to the fold. The bell symbolizes guidance and return.



Santa looked back and was pleased. He looked back at me and I saw that the twinkle was back in his eyes. He said, "Remember, teach the children the true meaning of Christmas and do not put me in the center, for I am but a humble servant of the One that is, and I bow down to worship him, our LORD, our GOD."



Merry Christmas!!!



THANKS for the Christmas cards, Constance!



THANKS for the Christmas gifts, Ashy!

Before I end this super long entry, let me ask you one question. What will your New Year resolution be? Do tell me VIA MSN or my e-mail!

Take care. TTFN; Ta Ta For Now!

I'm off to bed now as for tomorrow will be a big event for me at East Coast Park. That will be another story to tell on my next entry.

Signing Off,

Shah Rizal Isaac

Injection Phobia



I have always had injection phobia and the fear of getting a shot has even caused me to pass out from the stress.



In the primary school days, it was "shot day" and the nurse would periodically call out names over the intercom informing the unlucky ones of their impending doom.



I wasn't paying real close attention when the next name was called, but the girl in front of me got up, left the room and was gone for a suitable length of time.



When she came back, the room was very quiet and I spoke up (so everyone could clearly hear me) and asked her if it hurt much.



She gave me a really strange look and the teacher seemed outraged that I should ask such a question. Everyone else just snickered.



At that point, the teacher politely pointed out to me that my fellow student had just returned from the restroom.

Cat Fright



When I was in high school, being a cat lover, I got a new kitten almost every year. Well I had gotten my favorite kitten, Portia, a beautiful, sleek white kitten who was part Siamese.



I took her to my cousin's house for the weekend and she roamed around their house. The cat would try to disappear or get away and we would find her. But one time, she did not pop out from under the furniture.



I became alarmed that she was missing so I had the whole family tearing the house and neighborhood up in a frenzy. After an hour of searching, we gave up and I sat down in tears. She must have wandered off.



My face was hot from being upset, so I wanted a drink of water. I opened the fridge to get some ice and in the bottom of the fridge there was a shivering white mass. It was Portia!!



She had crawled into the fridge when someone had opened it and not seen her.



And on another occasion, I was at my friend's house, we were outside all day, it was really hot out and when we got in we was really thirsty.



She told me to go get her and me some ice cream out of the freezer. Well I was looking around and took a box out that looked like ice cream. I opened the box and to my surprise it was her dead pet kitten!



I screamed and put the box in the freezer. When I got back in the room she asked, "Where's the ice cream?" Then she said, "I forgot to tell you; My kitten died and we are going to go have it stuffed."



Things were never the same after that. I would never look in her freezer.



Signing Off,

Shah Rizal Isaac

Constantly Emerging



When one problem ends another will occur. In my previous post, I wrote that I had to pay the bill which was not even mine. But as I did not want any of us to be trapped in any complicated situation, I stepped out to be the problem solver.



I have decided to pay for the bills instead. What I did not realize was that the bills will be overdued soon which will be this coming 22nd December. If I do not pay the bloody bill by that given date, I will be fine $318 dollars.



So mathematically, I will have to pay a total amount of $607. So do your calculations.



Argh!



Why must this bloody happen to me?



Signing Off,

Shah Rizal Isaac

The Ones On Lights Off And Swallowing Ants



Author's notes: I have updated the entry for 17th December.



I was at sleep away camp and there was a really bad storm. Eventually we lost power and most of my friends went scrambling for our flashlights.



My best friend at camp (sadly), shouted, "Oh no! Since we don't have electricity our flashlights won't work!" It took awhile, but we managed to explain to her that flashlights run on batteries.



I'm still not sure she gets it, but someday she'll understand...



A few weeks ago my friend called me up proclaiming that she had eaten and swallowed some ants on accident.



I told her that she would be ok and that they would be dead before they could do any harm. Towards the end of the phone conversation something caught our attention.



She said that she ate some ant poison to kill the ants. We then told her that she better go to the hospital right away.



Everything ended up ok though, and we all still laugh about it to this day.



Signing Off,

Shah Rizal Isaac

Troubled, BreakDown, And Died



Without my godbrothers; Amal and Jay, and my other half; Ashy, I would have been torn into pieces by now. I will not know what to do and I would probably be lost in my own confused world.



I am glad I have these kind-hearted, good samaritans. I am glad to know that they will always be there for me when I am down, when I am sad or when I am in need of help.



I would never forget them and if ever, they are in need of help or a shoulder to cry on, I will be there for them too.



I'd realized how naive I am. I'd realized how gullible I could be. I'm sick and tired of people stepping onto my head and taking advantage of the weaker ones or should I say, the nicer people.



And I ponder; Why must bad things befalls on good people. Why must the good people take on the blame for the things he or she did not do? How ironic could it get...



Two words for them; Fuck Off!



Without a doubt, I was uncontrollably sad yesterday. I had let my emotions get the better of me. But now, I am clear-headed and able to think of a opened door to the plight I am in and will be telling to you at the later part of the entry.



I felt that now I am in a very good situation and is not as bad as what I thought of the day before. How foolish I was.



To cut the whole thing short, let me end this entry with what happened yesterday...



Three months back, I'd got pretty close to this guy A and thought he was a nice person. He needed my help by wanting to get a telephone line. But as I did not have my NRIC with me, I was of no use to him.



So I asked my the other friend of mine to help him instead. Let's name him B. Both A and B are my friends but they do not know one another.



A wanted to use B's NRIC to register a line for himself. And so, I told B to do my friend a favour and trust me. I assured B that my other friend A will definitely pay for the line that he is using.



Everything went well.



But only till the bill for the 1st month came. My friend and I was surprised that the bill was 70 bucks which was not the original price stated in the plan. We knew my friend A was not using his handphone wisely.



I informed A about the bill and told him to pay immediately. I thought he would but I was naive to believe him.



Days passed but the bill was still unpaid.



Curious and worried, I asked A again and he responded that he will be paying his 1st month handphone bill along with the coming 2nd month bill.



I agreed.



The time came and yet again, we were shocked. This time, the bill had rise from a measly 70 to a huge amount of 389 dollars.



Nothing could describe how I felt at that very moment.



I told A about it and he promised to pay the bill. I asked him time and again but his responds was okay and he assured me he will pay the bills.



But till now, he didn't. The line is already terminated and the date due for the overdue bills for November is approaching that is on the 20th Deccember.



I felt betrayed. I was lost and confused. I did not know what to do about it.



Now I will be the one paying the 359 dollars. I do not want my friend B to feel worried. I don't want him to panic.



All I could say is that I am such a naive guy. I should have known better. I should differentiate who was good and bad. I have such a poor judgement and it's all my fault.

I was at a loose ends. I was breaking down. But thankfully, I had my other half and my two godbrothers to help me morally and mentally. In the end, I still cried over the phone.

This entry is not meant for you people to sympathise me or to laugh at the plight I'm in now. I just want to share my experience with you, blog readers. I'd learnt my lesson and that is not to be so gullible and trust people so readily.

However, I would like to thank those 17 blog readers of mine who took the time to send me e-mails to console me and so on. I am really grateful to you all. Thank you.

After letting all my feelings out, I feel good about myself.

Jacelyn Tay once said, "It's not the fall, but how you pick yourself up that matters."

Signing Off,

Shah Rizal Isaac

LOVE



Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings and



emotions lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others



including Love.



However, one day it was announced to the couples that the island would



sink, so all prepared their boats and left. Love was the only one who



stayed.







Love wanted to stay until it started sinking.







When Love had almost completed sinking, he decided to ask for help.







Richness was passing by Love in a beautiful boat.



Love said, "Richness, can you take me with you?"



Richness answered, "No, I can't.. There is a lot of gold and silver in



my boat. There is no place here for you,"







Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by,



"Vanity, please help me!" "I can't help you Love.



You are all wet and can probably damage my boat," Vanity answered.







Sadness was close by, so Love asked for help,



"Sadness, let me go with you." "Oh...Love, I am so sad that I prefer



to go alone!"







Happiness passed by Love too, but she was so happy that she did not



listen when Love called her!







Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come Love, I will take you,"



It was an elder. Love became so happy that he even forgot to ask the



name of the elder.



When they arrived to the other side, Love asked Knowledge who was the



elder who helped him.



"It was Time,"



"Time? But why did Time help me?"



"Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."

Stupidest Things



I know someone who lives right down the street. One day she was walking along and struck up a conversation with my Mom. I had nothing to do and was overhearing it. The topic went to dogs.



Then she said, "You know, there is this really strange thing that happens every time I drive to school. I pass this street and there is this dead dog. And once I get out of school and pass the street again, someone moved the dog. It's really weird! Every day someone moves this dead dog back and forth!"



So, one day, we drove down that street to get to the supermarket, and remembering that conversation looked down the street and saw the dog laying there. The dog wasn't dead, it was sleeping!

Stupid woman!

Anyway, back in my high school days, I had just barely got my new pair of contact lenses. I came home really late from somewhere one night and went to take out my contacts and put them to soak. I didn't bother to turn on the lights.



The optical had given me some small sample bottles of lens cleaner and I went to reach for this and put my lenses to soak. It wasn't until the next morning when I put my lenses in that I discovered my mistake.



I had grabbed a bottle of Murine eye drops instead of the cleaning solution, and had dyed my contact lenses yellow! Except for the faint yellow tint, I could still see out of them just fine and wore them for 2 weeks until my replacement lenses arrived.



Now think about this; my eyes are bright blue. Yellow contact lenses mixed with blue eyes produce the most "glow in the dark", bright GREEN cat eyes that you ever saw! I'd be sitting in class and the teacher would look at me, then look again!



When I called different opticals and explained the problem, asking what could be done, nobody believed me. They all were laughing their heads off and a few of them said "no way!" and hung up on me.



Signing Off,

Shah Rizal Isaac

Evil Twin's Quotes



"To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love.



To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness."



I hope you're getting this down.

Star Awards Predictions



P/S: This entry is written by me and my other half.



Believe it or not, it takes both mental and physical exhaustion to reach the heights of a star award. Besides being involved in many dramas and exposure, simply factors such as timing and coordination also count.



Quality over quantity, the actors/actresses have to give their utter best in every drama they star in, be it a simple support cast or the main lead. If they decide that quantity is over quality, then perhaps they will most likely not be liked by the general audience.



As for exposure, various courses and even tickets to other countries might be needed to expose them and turn them into a true Mediacorp star fit for the star award.



However, I was extremely disappointed when Zoe Tay did not make it into the top 10 most popular artiste trophy award this year as she has already bagged ten consecutive top 10 awards.



Other actors/actresses, such as Li Nanxing and Chew Chor Meng who have bagged this award ten consecutive times are also not allowed to qualify for this category anymore.



However, get rid of your disappointment! For they will win a rather unique award after they hit the magic ten. What is it, you might ask? Well, it is none other than the all-time favorite award!



This will represent that they have been chosen by the general audience for the top 10 award more than ten times. In other words, this will prove both their worth and popularity.



However, I do pity the three popular figures of Caldecott. Once, they have held the crown of glory and the staff of pride. Does this mean they will no longer be able to grab ahold of it?



Also, with them gone, will they be further alienated from the younger generations? What will they say if we ask them who Zoe Tay was in five years time? Will they either simply shrug their puny shoulders or will they shout and scream in joy? Somehow, I think the answer would lie with the former if this continues.



Due to this new rule, many fans, including me, are incredibly upset, and are ready to begin a revolution filled with riots and the writing of new rules for the star awards. Demands shall be made and each shall be fulfilled without any questions!

Jack Neo, our very own Singapore actor turn director, and the man behind the famous local movies, I Not Stupid and the Best Bet, will not be receiving the Top 10 Most Popular Artiste trophy at the Star Awards this year too.



He wants his fans to concentrate on his directing efforts. With already receiving the Top 10 awards 6 consecutive times, he already proved himself worthy and popular.



With those four big names out of Top 10 most popular artiste awards, will those artistes who were nominated times and times again in the previous years finally have their chance of getting the trophy?



I ponder.



I hereby announced my predictions for the Top 10 Most popular awards. If I am wrong, do not 'boo' me. *Laugh*



Without a doubt, Fann Wong, Xiang Yun, Sharon Au and Phyllis Quek will be in the top 10. They have always been consistent especially Fann Wong who has a large fan base both in Singapore and Taiwan.



With the support from her fans, I doubt she will not receive the Top 10 popular female artiste. If that happens, you can expect a World War III!



Our popular rising star, Jeanette Aw may stand a chance of bringing the Top 10 trophy home since she is well-liked and the favorite of many people.



Ever since she starred in the hit television drama series, Holland V as the blur and naive Mo Jing Jing, she has earned herself many supporters and respect for her acting skills.



With 5 names already predicted, who will the other 5 be?



Chen Liping and Pan Ling Ling who were ousted from last year's top 10 may emerged victorious this time round, proving others that they are worthy of bagging those trophies.

And with Michelle Saram, our unexpected winner for last year's Top 10, and Zoe Tay, our undisputed winner, out of the Top 10 list, the stake has raised. It's anyone's game right now.

Fiona Xie who started out as a nurse in growing up, was recorgnised for her great acting skills and was pledged a full-time artiste in 2001. All her hard work within the year 2001 was recognised when she bagged two awards (Best Newcomer and Top 10 Most Popular Female Artistes) at Star Awards 2001.

Will she able to bag the top 10 trophy this year or will she falls behind again?

Joanne Peh, our very own Lux girl, was finally nominated in the top 20 most popular female artiste category. She may just squeeze her way into the top 10 with her silky shiny hair blinding us and outshining the rest.

Huang Biren and Ivy Lee will most likely be vying for the last spot for the top 10 most popular female artiste award. Both of them are equally good but if you were to ask me who proves more worthy, I would have to go with Huang Biren.

The dark horses for the Top 10 popular female artistes are Vivian Lai and Priscelia Chan. So never to let your guard down when you're around these two charming ladies.

As for the Top 10 male artiste category, my best bet would be Christopher Lee, Tay Ping Hui, Vincent Ng, Terence Chao, Edmund Chen, Xie Shao Guang and Chen Hanwei. They are of course the A-List stars and with their ever-growing popularity, without a doubt, they may bagged the trophy.

First-timer Qi Yuwu will bring home the trophy with ease as the youngsters nowadays are interested in good-looking and nice bod guys. So it would not be a surprise if Qi Yuwu manage to get the award.

Comedians, Gurmit Singh and Mark Lee would be the last two to get the trophy. As for the others I did not mention, they just could not make the cut.

My best card for winning the best host award would go to Sharon Au. However with the appearance of Michelle Chiong, who is the host for 'All In Nets' there seems to be another competitor for the same award.



Nevertheless, both of them are good.

May Phua, who is nominated in the best supporting actress category might just bring home the trophy as she had put in 100% effort in her convincing role in the drama series, An Ode to Life.

Patricia Mok who won the best supporting actress for acting as Mo Ling Ling, a kind-hearted lady who had to tolerate her rowdy husband in Holland V last year was not nominated in the best supporting actress category this time round.

Not to fret, she is still nominated in the Best comedy performer category this year. Hopefully she would bag that award.

But with Mark Lee nominated in the same category as Patricia Mok, her chances of winning might not be easy.

Zhang Wen Xiang and Jeff Wang who were nominated in the Best Supporting Actor have a slight lead against the rest as they had showcase great acting skills for their roles in Double Happiness I and Timeless Gift respectively.

Suspense grabs everyone by the neck as people quiver in anticipation. Will Double Happiness I be a useless flop? Or will An Ode To Life be going into the dust bin and proclaimed useless?



However, without surprise, Double Happiness I has chalked up the most nominations this year, most noticeably, best drama, best actor (Xie Shaoguang), best actress (Ivy Lee and Xiang Yun), best supporting actor (Jeff Wang), best supporting actress (Hong Huifang and Vivian Lai) and young talent award (Li Xianmin).

As for the Best Actress category, it will be a toss between Jeanette Aw and Xiang Yun. However, this will be a second shot for Jeanette Aw in grabbing the best actress trophy since last year.

Xie Shao Guang who has won twice in the best actor category may claim his trophy again this year. But Edmund Chen who had displayed a good acting skills in Man At Forty may just suprise us as well.

Well whoever do not win, they are not sore losers. They're just run out of luck.



Numbers will start with 1900-112-80**

Replace the asteriks with the numeral value of the actor/actress you wish to vote for.



Top 20 Most Popular Male Artistes Nominees:



Vincent Ng: 01

Christopher Lee: 02

Chen Hanwei: 03

Edmund Chen: 04

Xie Shaoguang: 05

Zhou Chongqing: 06

Tay Ping Hui: 07

Moses Lim: 08

Chen Shucheng: 09

Huang Wenyong: 10

Henry Thia: 11

Huang Yiliang: 12

Mark Lee: 13

Qi Yuwu: 14

Terence chao: 15

Dasmond Koh: 16

Gurmit Singh: 17

Marcus Chin: 18

Zhu Houren: 19

Liu Qianyi: 20



Top 20 Most Popular Female Artistes Nominees:



Phyllis Quek: 21

Joey Swee: 22

Fann Wong: 23

Patricia Mok: 24

Jeanette Aw: 25

Chen Liping: 26

Vivian Lai: 27

Sharon Au: 28

Priscelia Chan: 29

Huang Biren: 30

Jin Yinji: 31

Yvonne Lim: 32

Jacelyn Tay: 33

Pan Lingling: 34

Xiang Yun: 35

Ivy Lee: 36

Cynthia Koh: 37

Joanne Peh: 38

Fiona Xie: 39

Li Lin: 40



Want to call? The lines will be open from Dec 6th, 2004 at 00:01hr till Dec 12th, 2004, at 21:00hr. Each call will cost at least 1 dollar, not forgetting the 5% GST value!



Want to vote more than once? Apparently, this award event allows viewers to vote more than once; so vote to your heart's content! However, callers under the age of eighteen must obtain parental consent.



Signing Off,

Shah Rizal Isaac

A Sweet Love Story



John Blanchard stood up from the bench, straightened his Army uniform, and studied the crowd of people making their way through Grand Central Station. He looked for the girl whose heart he knew, but whose face he didn't, the girl with the rose. His interest in her had begun thirteen months before in a Florida library.



Taking a book off the shelf he found himself intrigued, not with the words of the book, but with the notes penciled in the margin. The soft handwriting reflected a thoughtful soul and insightful mind.



In front of the book, he discovered the previous owner's name, Miss Hollis Maynell. With time and effort he located her address. She lived in New York City. He wrote her a letter introducing himself and inviting her to correspond. The next day he was shipped overseas for service in World War II.



During the next year and one-month the two grew to know each other through the mail. Each letter was a seed falling on a fertile heart. A Romance was budding. Blanchard requested a photograph, but she refused. She felt that if he really cared, it wouldn't matter what she looked like.



When the day finally came for him to return from Europe, they scheduled their first meeting - 7:00 pm at Grand Central Station in New York.



"You'll recognize me, " she wrote, "by the red rose I'll be wearing on my lapel." So at 7:00 he was in the station looking for a girl whose heart he loved, but whose face he'd never seen.



I'll let Mr. Blanchard tell you what happened: A young women was coming toward me, her figure long and slim. Her blonde hair lay back in curls from her delicate ears; her eyes were blue as flowers. Her lips and chin had a gentle firmness, and in her pale green suit she was like springtime come alive.



I started toward her, entirely forgetting to notice that she was not wearing a rose. As I moved, a small, provocative smile curved her lips. "Going my way, sailor?" she murmured. Almost uncontrollably I made one step closer to her, and then I saw Hollis Maynell. She was standing almost directly behind the girl. A women well past 40, she had graying hair tucked under a worn hat.



She was more than plump, her thick-ankled feet thrust into low-heeled shoes. The girl in the green suit was walking quickly away. I felt as though I split in two, so keen was my desire to follow her, and yet so deep was my longing for the women whose spirit had truly companioned me and upheld my own.



And there she stood. Her pale, plump face was gentle and sensible, her gray eyes had a warm and kindly twinkle. I did not hesitate. My fingers gripped the small worn blue leather copy of the book that was something precious, something perhaps even better than love, a friendship for which I had been and must ever be grateful.



I squared my shoulders and saluted and held out the book to the women, even though while I spoke I felt choked by the bitterness of my disappointment. "I'm Lieutenant John Blanchard, and you must be Miss Maynell. I am so glad you could meet me; may I take you to dinner?"



The women's face broadened into a tolerant smile. "I don't know what this is about, son," she answered, "but the young lady in the green suit who just went by, she begged me to wear this rose on my coat. And she said if you were to ask me out to dinner, I should go and tell you that she is waiting for you in the big restaurant across the street. She said it was some kind of test!"



It's not difficult to understand and admire Miss Maynell's wisdom. The true nature of a heart is seen in it's response to the unattractive. "Tell me whom you love," Houssaye wrote, "And I will tell you who you are."



Signing Off,

Shah Rizal Isaac

A Tinge Of Disappointment



Thunder rumbled outside as the morning skies grew darker with each passing moment. And soon, it rained. I was awakened by the thunder and the cold wind that was blowing into my opened window.



Cold and tired. Each hour, I would open my eyes slightly to see if you messaged me but you didn't. Time passed swiftly but there was still no beep from my cellular.



And then afternoon came.



I was a little disappointed that you did not message me when you woke up and when you had to leave your house to meet your friend. I was pondering, "Should I message you first since I had always done that every time."



I waited.



And waited. But it did not happen.



Signing Off,

Shah Rizal Isaac

The Kind Wicked Old Lady



As I walked forward, through the bland spaces, I treaded by the complacent store of neon and gold. With irreverent glee, I sat down, loitering about the curb, resting a disquieted soul, silencing the complaining feet.



Sighing, I rose and walked onwards, down the cold walkways by the street through the dark alleys of artificial wild, obscene overgrowth of garbage and mould. Until the gate I reached with a glaring sign, it looked down "No trespassing" it declared. With ominous pleasure and secret joy.



So I turned back and walked to the quiet street. And then I chanced upon an old lady selling curry puffs. She said in a low voice, "3 curry puffs for a dollar. Buy them, its worth your money."



I looked at her; her pitiful face, her wrinkled eyes, her flabby arms. She was such in a sorry state. I almost cried. I walked towards her with tiny steps and reached out for a dollar from my pocket.



But I only had a 2 dollar note which was crumpled. I asked in a low gentle voice, "Can you give me 6 curry puffs?"



The lady, in a slow motion manner, bend down and grabbed the curry puffs from the box with her tongs and placed them in the small plastic bag. I waited and felt like it was forever.



I decided to quicken her pace, "Hurry up lady! I want my curry puffs now!"



She looked up at me with her pitiful eyes, trying to tell me to sympathise her. I frowned and scolded her for being slow. "I want my curry puffs now!"



She handed me the curry puffs with a smile and asked for the 2 dollars. I gave it to her and walked away but little did I know, she started to laugh hysterically. She sounded like a witch.



I turned back and saw the old lady...







Muahahahaha! She Laughed.



She's a witch!



Wicked Old Lady, "Let's do the boogie!"



Signing Off,

Shah Rizal Isaac